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Bitter Almonds

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Jan 16, 2026
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1.4mg of cyanide per almond.
.5mg per kg of weight. (136kg)
That equates to about 48.5 bitter almonds in one sitting to ctb.

The reason you can't find bitter almonds in the states is that it is fairly easy to accidentally go over a safe threshold. small children can ingest lethal amounts in as few as 10 almonds.

40 almonds nearly killed a woman in a study I was reading - might have succeeded had she not gone to the hospital. (Funny enough, they gave her SN to cure the cyanide?)

Either way, I ordered about 2lbs of bitter almonds, and I'm considering how to prepare them. I also want to do about 70, just in case.

Any concerns about chopping or blending them into a smoothie or something? Or that maybe the milk in a smoothie would somehow make it less potent?
 
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ghosted1

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I kinda want to try this!
Sorry I just realised, you were asking for advice and I impulsively commented this due to lack of sleep... I hope you find the answers you're looking for soon!
 
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Bitter Almonds

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Thank you for this! I'll dig in.

As far as what made me want to try this: availability, mostly. Cyanide is fairly reliable, reasonably fast. not painless, but I'm too tall for FSH, the night night method requires a lot of prep and no one can really seem to figure it out. CO method was my next consideration, but honestly I read the failed attempts and the fact that you can be messed up so long after a failed attempt is overwhelming.

I don't think I could make myself jump. I could get a gun, but I don't want to leave a huge mess or potentially traumatize my loved ones with seeing me like that.

I would do SN if I could get a hold of it but that seems impossible in the US now.
 
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FinalDestination

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Mar 10, 2020
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What a coincidence! I actually attempted last year with bitter almonds. It came to about 70g and just blitzed them in the blender with water. Truly tasted horrendous. So I just drank it at once and lied down to nap. Extremely high heartbeat but forced myself to sleep through it. After a few hours I assumed it just didn't work and went downstairs. When I came back up I must of passed out and woke up with a gash on my forehead from when I fell. I managed to get up and go back to bed since I thought this was it. I ended up just passing out a while.

I'm pretty sure it failed for me because it might not have been pure or heavily processed . But can see it working If it's the right stuff
 
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Bitter Almonds

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What a coincidence! I actually attempted last year with bitter almonds. It came to about 70g and just blitzed them in the blender with water. Truly tasted horrendous. So I just drank it at once and lied down to nap. Extremely high heartbeat but forced myself to sleep through it. After a few hours I assumed it just didn't work and went downstairs. When I came back up I must of passed out and woke up with a gash on my forehead from when I fell. I managed to get up and go back to bed since I thought this was it. I ended up just passing out a while.

I'm pretty sure it failed for me because it might not have been pure or heavily processed . But can see it working If it's the right stuff
Thanks for this info. I'm a little curious what the variables are, because you would think 70g would be somewhere in the realm of 100mg of cyanide.

I ordered from a spice shop in India, so hopefully they're as pure as can be.

The only thing you remember was the heart rate and the passing out? Were there any other side effects the following day/week?
 
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carfemtanyl

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it's way easier to make pure potassium cyanide from freely available potassium ferrocyanide and a blow torch
this is some crude potassium cyanide I made using this method
 

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Bitter Almonds

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it's way easier to make pure potassium cyanide from freely available potassium ferrocyanide and a blow torch
this is some crude potassium cyanide I made using this method
Freely available?

What do you do with it? i.e., is it water soluble? do you just eat it? Sorry I only really know the cyanide liquid from books.
 
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carfemtanyl

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Nov 18, 2025
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you can buy potassium ferrocyanide without raising suspicion and then you just blast it with a blow torch until it has fully turned black/grayish and has stopped bubbling and then, while it's molten from the heat, you decant it onto something cold while leaving back the black residue
 
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Bitter Almonds

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you can buy potassium ferrocyanide without raising suspicion and then you just blast it with a blow torch until it has fully turned black/grayish and has stopped bubbling and then, while it's molten from the heat, you decant it onto something cold while leaving back the black residue
What's left is pure cyanide? At which point you can just consume it in a drink or something?
 
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carfemtanyl

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Basically yeah. The drink shouldn't be acidic though since that will react with the cyanide and potassium cyanide is also very basic so you should dissolve it in a glass of water and drink it on an empty stomach.
 
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Bitter Almonds

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Jan 16, 2026
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Interesting. I'll definitely look into this. Any harmful fumes i should be wary of?
 
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FinalDestination

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Mar 10, 2020
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Thanks for this info. I'm a little curious what the variables are, because you would think 70g would be somewhere in the realm of 100mg of cyanide.

I ordered from a spice shop in India, so hopefully they're as pure as can be.

The only thing you remember was the heart rate and the passing out? Were there any other side effects the following day/week?
Surprisingly no. Maybe mild nausea after waking up . It just wasn't enough amygdalin to do anything more.

I'd probably do it again as a back up if my sn fails but with a better source. I hope it works out for you
 
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Bitter Almonds

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Surprisingly no. Maybe mild nausea after waking up . It just wasn't enough amygdalin to do anything more.

I'd probably do it again as a back up if my sn fails but with a better source. I hope it works out for you
Thank you. I'm jealous of those of you with SN, but hopefully this works out.
 

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