currently failing charcoal

[seriouslyeffitall]

Second try at charcoal. AMA. I sat in on an in closed porch with the bbq going for 2 hours. I used lump charcoal, waited for it to be ashy and white but I never got even the slightest tired. Please don't say "buy a co meter" because the idea was to make it look like an accident. I put food near me that would give the illusion that I was overtaken by carbon monoxide. Tonight was the night. The kids are gone, my asshole cheating wife is gone, but nothing. I'm tired of trying and I'm even more tired of waking up.

I'm two(?) margaritas deep and fucking sad the eternal quiet didn't come. All I got was overheated. I just want quiet.

 

[front of me]

Can you talk to your husband about cheating? It seems immoral

 

[Eudaimonic]

Don't do this at home; the risk to others is unacceptable. Find an opportunity to go camping or smth.

 

[befree]

Charcoal method advice

Hi, I somehow came across this site after some furious google searching over the weekend. After trying and failing other methods over the past month I came across back to the idea of carbon monoxide and decided to dig further into charcoal burning, of which there are plenty discussions on this...

sanctioned-suicide.net

 

[FuneralCry]

It must be so awful going through a failed attempt, I wish it was more straightforward to be eternally free from this existence, I hope you eventually find the freedom you search for.

 

[アホペンギン]

I'm sorry you failed your attempt, it must hurt an awful amount trying to attempt and failing, especially if you didn't feel close to dying at all during said attempt. But, are you sure its a completely enclosed space? Try looking for any vents and close those up. You might've failed because there was still some slight ventilation, I'm not sure, I'm not very knowledgeable concerning the charcoal method.

 

[seriouslyeffitall]

Can you talk to your husband about cheating? It seems immoral

I am the husband and, yes, it's been discussed ad nauseum. She's in a full ass relationship.

It must be so awful going through a failed attempt, I wish it was more straightforward to be eternally free from this existence, I hope you eventually find the freedom you search for.

Live and learn, I guess. Eventually I have to get it right, no?