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sadratx

sadratx

Eternal peace
Feb 6, 2026
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I'm not good with words. All I know is I need this to end. I'm so fucking tired. Nothing ever gets better; it's a vicious cycle. I just hurt everyone around me, physically or emotionally. I don't know why I do it, but all I know is I need to get rid of myself before I do more damage. I can't get SN — too risky for my situation. I'm known to mental health services, so I would be flagged. But what's the best foolproof method? I was thinking about hanging, but the risk of becoming vegetated is terrifying to me. I was thinking of taking my best on swallowing whatever pills I can find and chugging down a couple of litres of vodka. That's the only thing I can get my hands on. What's the likelihood that will work? Please, God, someone help me
 
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chloeburbank

hug me
Jan 30, 2026
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I was thinking of taking my best on swallowing whatever pills I can find and chugging down a couple of litres of vodka.
I'm sorry for what you are going through and hope you can find peace one day. I wouldn't recommend taking the pills, as overdosing has a very low chance of working. I linked a resource below that you can use to research other methods! Sending hugs 💜

 
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sadratx

sadratx

Eternal peace
Feb 6, 2026
2
I'm sorry for what you are going through and hope you can find peace one day. I wouldn't recommend taking the pills, as overdosing has a very low chance of working. I linked a resource below that you can use to research other methods! Sending hugs 💜

Thank you I'll find my peace soon
 

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