Venting CTB before birthday

[lostintheloop]

Whilst I know setting a date can cause problems, as I have a few times before and backed out, I don't have much choice as it'll be set for me . The date hasn't been set yet but will be before my birthday which is a month away, as I'm not meant to see 24. So got to get my act together.

 

[dolemitedrums]

Why are you not meant to see 24?

 

[RemainingDubious]

Have you managed to regain control?

 

[longglost]

I originally thought I was going to ctb before my birthday which is now next week. Getting the things together for my method has been tedious though. I'm going to be 20 and the more people talk about the end of my teenage years coming to a close and becoming a "real" adult the more I feel like this life was never meant for me. I hope you can get to the point where you can be at peace, whichever way you see fit.

 

[ghostdog]

Dear friend , check your own facts and you will see that you have urgent problem to cut (mind state) and then on clear mind decide ctb , i am saying becaus eyou mention not once that you decoded message of them who controlled you that you must ctb in 6 month June , now is July already and as they were threathening to harm your loveed ones , i can assume that they are alright , so pleaase pleasee i dunno find one persone in real life who you think that you trust 1% and telll them about this everything and not hurry and trust me it will be a relief , i am saying this wityhout any hidden concept , fromm your posts you are kind person who is confused in my opinion

 

[lostintheloop]

Why are you not meant to see 24?

Lived past my expiry date already and if I live past my expiry age then it will cause so many more terrible things to happen.

Have you managed to regain control?

No, I don't think so. Feel very not in control.

I originally thought I was going to ctb before my birthday which is now next week. Getting the things together for my method has been tedious though. I'm going to be 20 and the more people talk about the end of my teenage years coming to a close and becoming a "real" adult the more I feel like this life was never meant for me. I hope you can get to the point where you can be at peace, whichever way you see fit.

Tbf most people I know in their 20s don't feel like a 'real adult'. I certainly don't .
So sorry life doesn't feel right for you, I hope you find peace in some way too.

Dear friend , check your own facts and you will see that you have urgent problem to cut (mind state) and then on clear mind decide ctb , i am saying becaus eyou mention not once that you decoded message of them who controlled you that you must ctb in 6 month June , now is July already and as they were threathening to harm your loveed ones , i can assume that they are alright , so pleaase pleasee i dunno find one persone in real life who you think that you trust 1% and telll them about this everything and not hurry and trust me it will be a relief , i am saying this wityhout any hidden concept , fromm your posts you are kind person who is confused in my opinion

I interpreted the 6 wrong but understand it better now. Can't tell anyone around me and talked to professionals who agree I am of clear mind so it's all good.

 

[ferrie]

I'm trying to go before I turn 24 too, but my birthday's this week. I hope you're able to find some peace soon

 

[lostintheloop]

I'm trying to go before I turn 24 too, but my birthday's this week. I hope you're able to find some peace soon

Thank you. I hope you find peace too and that you feel ready and comfortable with whatever decision you make, rather than too pressured by your birthday.

 

[dolemitedrums]

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