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Always-in-trouble

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Sounds like a form of aphantasia to me but I don't know @Arvayn
Lol it also happens to me, a lot @Always-in-trouble, everyday
Nearly lost my phone at college, which would of pissed support workers off bad. I wonder if its a form with aphantasia but with objects? 129,575
 
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maybe just memory issues @Always-in-trouble lol
 
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Always-in-trouble

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maybe just memory issues @Always-in-trouble lol
129,580: I guess so. Honestly, I am thinking of ctbing tomorrow potentially. Plan is to go to beachy head where carers are not in the house to work and skip college that day (just gonna lie that I arrived at college). I know it's not a robust plan (need a way to not get found out by patrols and also find the right spot for example) in the slightest, but I am really just becoming nihilistic and stupid. Can't bear with myself anymore.
 
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129,580: I guess so. Honestly, I am thinking of ctbing tomorrow potentially. Plan is to go to beachy head where carers are not in the house to work and skip college that day (just gonna lie that I arrived at college). I know it's not a robust plan (need a way to not get found out by patrols and also find the right spot for example) in the slightest, but I am really just becoming nihilistic and stupid. Can't bear with myself anymore.
I'll miss you...

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@Arvayn I will need a list of your favourite books with a detailed review of each one
 
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Personally, I can recognize faces, but I can never picture faces in my imagination unless I am very interested in that person. There are maybe two people who I can accurately and confidently recreate the faces of from memory; everyone else, I just think of them in terms of names and voices.
I'm the same, but I pay extra attention to faces, and absolutely no attention to names. I just associate people by face and voice
Wow, Arvayn's offline for once. You know it's bad when he's offline
 
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maybe he isn't a vampire after all and really is sleeping.........
 
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Who summons my name?
I had to regather my energy and schedule a doctor's appointment for tomorrow. I will probably get some kind of antibiotic prescription, but really, I'm just doing it for the medical leave.
@Arvayn I will need a list of your favourite books with a detailed review of each one
Believe it or not, I actually do not read literature too much. My bookshelf is intentionally tailored to be radical, because I want educated people who come into my house to recoil and ask themselves if I am a person remotely worth talking with, because there's a 50/50 chance I'm either enlightened or helplessly deranged.
Lolita, Invitation To A Beheading, Blood Meridian, 120 days of Sodom, The Stranger, Between Two Fires, Corpus Hermeticum, The Book of Lies, The Complete Manual of Suicide, Nihil Unbound; that's what I'm all about. Of course, with a few taboo smut books thrown in there, for good measure.

Now, as for writing a detailed review of each one, er... I only have so much free time...
 
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Believe it or not, I actually do not read literature too much. My bookshelf is intentionally tailored to be radical, because I want educated people who come into my house to recoil and ask themselves if I am a person remotely worth talking with, because there's a 50/50 chance I'm either enlightened or helplessly deranged.
Lolita, Invitation To A Beheading, Blood Meridian, 120 days of Sodom, The Stranger, Between Two Fires, Corpus Hermeticum, The Book of Lies, The Complete Manual of Suicide, Nihil Unbound; that's what I'm all about.
Love love love quite a lot of these. Thanks for sating my curiosity.
I hate Crowley though, and I prefer Pasolini's movie rather than Marquis' book.

Now, as for writing a detailed review of each one, er... I only have so much free time...
If you ever write a review of any, tag me.
 
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Love love love quite a lot of these. Thanks for sating my curiosity.
I hate Crowley though, and I prefer Pasolini's movie rather than Marquis' book.

If you ever write a review of any, tag me.
Will do, and you're welcome. Yeah, Crowley is a lot more of a mystic than a writer; he doesn't do well outside of his lane. To my symbolic and meaning-hungry mind, though, I enjoy it.
I did both watch the movie and read the book. Funny story behind my watching of the movie:

I had a girlfriend at the time who would always make me watch movies with her (I dislike movies, they make me fall asleep) and get very uppity if I refused to. Her taste was really uninteresting to me; highschool dramas, romance thrillers, psychological horror (I do not get scared by horror, so they come across as unnecessarily drawn out with long periods of nothing happening, and usually I'd just be the emotional support pillow). To be honest, 2/3rds of the time we'd just hook up halfway through and not even watch the movie, so I have no idea why she insisted on it so much when she could have just gotten to the point. Anyway...

One fateful night, she wanted me to choose the movie for once. BOY, DID I HAVE A MOVIE TO CHOOSE FOR HER!
 
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Will do, and you're welcome. Yeah, Crowley is a lot more of a mystic than a writer; he doesn't do well outside of his lane. To my symbolic and meaning-hungry mind, though, I enjoy it.
He has claimed he has raped people in his diaries, so as far as I'm concerned he's subhuman trash.

One fateful night, she wanted me to choose the movie for once. BOY, DID I HAVE A MOVIE TO CHOOSE FOR HER!
On a date with my girlfriend before we really knew each other, the first movie I got her to watch was Begotten by Elias Merhige.

I hate porn so I despise the Marquis' book, but I really enjoyed what Pasolini did with it and how he subverted it as an anti-fascist message. He was murdered for that movie by the Italian fascist regime, for those who don't know.
 
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This author, David Foster Wallace, received a letter from a reader, where the reader asks him how to find love, and that he could only love a woman who's as smart as him, but he can't find any other smart people who like to read.
In response, the author told him to shoot for a mentally ill girl. This is from 2004. Dude invented "I can fix her" before the internet did; truly ahead of his time... Lmao.
 
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"If you were a heterosexual woman, I would tell you to be prepared to settle." 💀
 
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