Discussion Contradictions

[deny_conformity]

I recently had a blood test that highlighted I have high cholesterol (yay being a middle aged man) and I find myself acting very contradictory. One minute I'm researching ways to lower my cholesterol, the next I'm having trouble resisting the urge to buy SN online.

Has anyone else experienced the same?

 

[Sphinxi]

I think being suicidal is necessarily contradictory, since we are designed to live and impact

 

[Forever Sleep]

I think- because we know that poor health or, factors that could lead to poor health will only make our lives worse- if we're not sure if/ when we might kill ourselves, it also makes sense to be keeping an eye on our health. To cover all bases- basically. Just because we are suicidal, doen't mean we enjoy being ill or risking illness.

That said- it depends on a person's plan I suppose. Some people do genuinely seem to want to paint themselves into a corner- as it were. Where suicide becomes their only option.

It's like that saying though: 'Live every day like it's your last.' Who would work on their last day on earth? Who would stick to a restricted diet? Most of the time, we have to live with an eye on the future.

 

[hurts2b]

Not contradictory at all. You want your body to function well while it's still alive.

 

[deny_conformity]

I think I summed it up to friends when I made such a rapid recovery from my last suicide attempt:
"I want to be dead, not disabled"

I lost about 10kg in a week and couple barely stand for about a week after but I pushed myself into being back up and about and after about two weeks I did 10k steps in a day (pacing around in a mental hospital ) . The reason I know the step count is because I play Pikmin Bloom and I wasn't missing out on the community day badge for 10k steps.

I guess the trying to lower my cholesterol is about going out on my own terms, plus a heart attack would likely leave me weak as a kitten.