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batmanreal

batmanreal

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Sep 9, 2025
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i can't help but feel guilty over every little thing, it's becoming unbearable. i used to judge people who were like this, even though i've been like this for a while. it's stupid and illogical, most people on this planet simply aren't important enough to feel guilty over every little thing. we aren't important enough to make that big of an impact when we do inconsequential things. even the more notable mistakes we make don't really affect anyone or anything in the way we feel it does, i constantly preach that, and yet i constantly feel so much guilt over every action i take. i feel guilty for every thought i have.
i feel immeasurable guilt whenever i feed my cat a bit later than usual.
whenever i'm greeted by a coworker or acquaintance, i feel like shit afterwards because i begin to overthink how i responded. when they wave/audibly say hi, but i only smile in response.
i have a hard time not telling people how i feel. i can't sit on a thought, if i feel a certain way about someone, i have to tell them. if someone is getting on my nerves or says something i don't agree with, i have to say something. i always feel like shit after i do it, though—even if they're a piece of shit.
i've lost all my friends, i feel like shit in all cases. i exhausted most of them, some of them lost interest, it legitimately wasn't my fault in other cases. there are more reasons i could toss out, but there's no point. i feel horrible guilt in each situation.
i feel guilty when someone else feels guilty over something they did to me, even if it hurt me.
i've experienced a lot of sexual harassment at my job. three people who rank higher than me were saying some pretty gross things about me. one of those three people is my boss, who i've vented to about sexual harassment in the past. my brothers also rank higher than me, but just a little lower than my boss. my brothers saw me break down over this and said they'd take care of it, which just made me feel more guilty because that's more work on their end + it put them in an awkward position; but i felt a bit better and loved. anyways, they're still friendly with my boss. when i brought it up later on (i just said "fuck [my boss's name]), my brother just said "[boss's name]'s job is hard/stressful" and "other people have done worse" or something like that. i brought it up again later on, asked why he would excuse something like that, and he said that he didn't mean for it to come off like that. doesn't really matter because in that same conversation, he said "well what about second chances?". i feel really hurt because whenever his friends experience sexual harassment, or even if someone just says something mean about his friends, he does everything in his power to get that person fired. if they rank higher than him, he shit talks them every chance he gets. i don't get why this is different. either way, i feel so much guilt. i feel pissed, then i feel guilty for feeling pissed. i'm not in the wrong here, but i feel horrible because i'm making my brothers feel bad and i'm putting them in awkward situations.

i'm probably overcompensating for some intense victim complex
 
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Nightfoot

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Aug 7, 2025
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A guilty conscience can be the result of trauma and nothing you did wrong. Sorry you're struggling with this.
 

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