considering doing it tonight

[gizzreid]

i have everything prepared. i am sitting in the outfit i planned to CTB in. all i need to do is get fucked up and when i get tired enough, take the SN. my notes are all prepared and all my items have been assigned a loved one, i informed my partner in the note of a tumblr i created (the only app that won't notify my contacts lol) where i decide who gets what, easier than a physical note cause my family is across the country.

i thought that my partner staying with me would make me feel normal. i even had a decent day, i got a fucking raise today too, but still i just don't feel like it's worth it. i don't think i am strong enough. but i am so worried now that i have my partner back. i tried to be as consoling and uplifting in the note as i could but once it's done, it's done.

 

[CentreMid]

Best of luck in whatever you choose to do

 

[Unknown21]

Good luck, I hope you find the peace.

 

[uniqueusername39]

your partner knows you will ctb?

 

[leavingsoon99]

If you do, then may your transition be as painless and peaceful as possible.

 

[FuneralCry]

If you did decide to leave then I hope you found the freedom you were searching for. Best wishes.

 

[gizzreid]

your partner knows you will ctb?

not like, straight up. but i'm sure deep down he knows it's an inevitability. if he knew knew he'd call 911, he's threatened it before. but he likely knows subconsciously this is how it ends

 

[toofargone6969]

I'm sorry to see you here as I am here too. If you do plan to CTB I hope you have an antiemetic for the protocol and anything else needed. Be careful.

 

[searchingpeace]

Bless your soul and peace to you.