You do you. If this is the stuff you enjoy, more power to you.
However, don't share violent content and then shrug your shoulders and call people soft when they don't like it. If you're trying to convert people to your nihilistic philosophies, there's better ways. It makes you appear edgy, not enlightened.
Celebrating and making sport out of suicide isn't what this forum is for. There are plenty of communities that celebrate and encourage violent content, but it's not here.