Help Coming up with a plan

[new]

I need to ctb asap I don't care if it's painful nothing is worse than living I'm in constant emotional pain everyday as is I have a few ideas but not really sure I just want to make sure it is successful

 

[FuneralCry]

I do understand that it really can be so awful and tiring feeling trapped in this hellish world, and I hate how it's not straightforward to finally leave. It really sounds like you've suffered so much and it's very much understandable wishing to be permanently free so I hope that you find what you are looking for.

 

[new]

I do understand that it really can be so awful and tiring feeling trapped in this hellish world, and I hate how it's not straightforward to finally leave. It really sounds like you've suffered so much and it's very much understandable wishing to be permanently free so I hope that you find what you are looking for.

Thank you. No one really understands having said that as an adult I haven't shared my feelings about cbt for over 10years. But when I try to work on the things that torment me and cause me pain I'm just gaslighted or caused more pain I've put a lot of effort into resolving things to a place where it's bearable however I seem unable to get to that middleground. I know there are people that I will hurt tremendously which is why I have tried to fight this for so many years I hate the thought that I will hurt people or they will think I was selfish because I really do care about others however there has to be a point where enough is enough. Nothing is going to change and I can't do this for another 30years