Help Come to my flat take SN with me

[contemplatingjaahil]

who is that in your avatar?

Bella Hadid

 

[ClairyFairy]

Have you spoken to your gp? I was sex abused as a kid and a grown up. Please don't suffer in silence. My father abused me and the family I told said I was a liar so I stopped talking about it. I get therapy on the nhs. It's really hard but I think it's helping process my bad memories. I wish I'd ctb last year because this therapy has given me survival instinct which I don't think I had before. Everyone tells me that I will get better so I have to just blindly trust in that because I don't have it in me to try and fail any more

 

[x_LittleAmy_x]

What's SN?

 

[ClairyFairy]

What's SN?

It's curing salts

 

[x_LittleAmy_x]

It's curing salts

You mean salt as in what you put on food?
Why would you want to meet up with somebody just to eat salt??

 

[ClairyFairy]

You mean salt as in what you put on food?
Why would you want to meet up with somebody just to eat salt??

You don't put curing salts on your food you cure meat with it. I have no idea why people would come on a suicide website to cure meat. You just asked what it was

 

[justpeachy]

You mean salt as in what you put on food?
Why would you want to meet up with somebody just to eat salt??

You should probably do some more reading before posting/commenting. There's an entire resources section that describes each method in a lot of detail.

 

[UterEntonaur]

Maybe someone can bring a needle and inject it into my veins? I'm being serious

That won't work...

 

[justpeachy]

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You don't put curing salts on your food you cure meat with it. I have no idea why people would come on a suicide website to cure meat. You just asked what it

Unless you are being sarcastic you may also want to do a lot more reading prior to posting/commenting so you aren't giving out information that isn't accurate. I recommend you read the resources section if you truly have no idea why SN is used and how.


Also all these new people who have been here months but don't know what even SN is really make me question if they are pro lifers?

 

[UterEntonaur]

Also all these new people who have been here months but don't know what even SN is really make me question if they are pro lifers?

I know, right?

 

[justpeachy]

That won't work...

And is a really bad idea. Injecting a type of sodium in your veins? Likely won't end up dead and just horribly disfigured or if you do end up dead it will be through an absolutely awful and painful death that likely will take a significant amount of time and a considerable amount of severe pain.

What's SN?

You can find that answer in the resources section. Please go read that.

 

[ClairyFairy]

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Unless you are being sarcastic you may also want to do a lot more reading prior to posting/commenting so you aren't giving out information that isn't accurate. I recommend you read the resources section if you truly have no idea why SN is used and how.


Also all these new people who have been here months but don't know what even SN is really make me question if they are pro lifers?

Alright peachy I too am suspicious of people who ask questions that are answered all over the forum. Sn is used to cure meat and you don't just add it to food to taste. So what's your problem with me? I know my onions

 

[justpeachy]

I know, right?

Like I'm sorry if they aren't... but I just don't get how you can be a member here that is reading or participating on a regular basis (not even having to comment or anything) and researching your own plan (why else are you here if you aren't? To gawk? Or some other fucked up agenda *coughfixthe26cough*? And you don't even know what the most widely used method on this forum is. These aren't ppl that have only been members for a day or two. I'm talking months or 30+ days. It seems very sketchy to me and honestly makes me quite uncomfortable.

Alright peachy I too am suspicious of people who ask questions that are answered all over the forum. Sn is used to cure meat and you don't just add it to food to taste. So what's your problem with me? I know my onions

You have no idea why it is used, you need to be do research prior to answering questions with unhelpful information. Yes, it is a curing salt but you also then stated you have "no idea why anyone would take that" that's why I'm telling you that you really should do more research. It's literally stated in the rules when you join to read the resources.

 

[ClairyFairy]

Like I'm sorry if they aren't... but I just don't get how you can be a member here that is reading or participating on a regular basis (not even having to comment or anything) and researching your own plan (why else are you here if you aren't? To gawk? Or some other fucked up agenda *coughfixthe26cough*? And you don't even know what the most widely used method on this forum is. These aren't ppl that have only been members for a day or two. I'm talking months or 30+ days. It seems very sketchy to me and honestly makes me quite uncomfortable.

If I make you uncomfortable that's your problem. I'm sorry that my sarcasm sailed over your peachy little head. You don't have the monopoly on worrying people aren't who they say they are. My definition of sn wasn't wrong

 

[justpeachy]

Alright peachy I too am suspicious of people who ask questions that are answered all over the forum. Sn is used to cure meat and you don't just add it to food to taste. So what's your problem with me? I know my onions

And who exactly answered questions that are all over the forum? I did not respond to their question with an answer? That's not what I am even suspicious of. I'm suspicious of people that have been here for multiple months but have zero idea what SN is used for in terms of this forum not what it's overall daily purpose is for people that cure meat.

If I make you uncomfortable that's your problem. I'm sorry that my sarcasm sailed over your peachy little head. You don't have the monopoly on worrying people aren't who they say they are. My definition of sn wasn't wrong

Do you even read? I literally stated in my first sentence "I hope this is sarcasm" but instead of saying yeah haha it was you feel the need to insult me? Um, okay. Real nice. Never once stated I had the monopoly on anything either, I also am free to express my opinions just as you are. Clearly, others agreed.

If I make you uncomfortable that's your problem. I'm sorry that my sarcasm sailed over your peachy little head. You don't have the monopoly on worrying people aren't who they say they are. My definition of sn wasn't wrong

also given you clearly know what it is and stated you are using sarcasm (which this could have all been avoided had you said that when I literally said in my first comment in the first sentence I hope this is sarcasm) this wouldn't even be about you? So it sounds like you are the one taking things personally.

 

[ClairyFairy]

You actually said I hope this is sarcasm thus cementing the fact you weren't sure. So don't question my ability to read when you don't even know what you've said. I'm not a mole so don't you dare try and make out I am preachy

 

[justpeachy]

You actually said I hope this is sarcasm thus cementing the fact you weren't sure. So don't question my ability to read when you don't even know what you've said. I'm not a mole so don't you dare try and make out I am preachy

Omg, yes no shit, I was not sure. I literally was saying unless this is sarcasm...so why not answer with haha yes it was? Also, where did I ever disagree with you that I didn't know it was sarcasm...obviously I didn't, I never said I did. And stuff would have been totally fine? I'm not a mind reader and you often cannot tell sarcasm from comments online. And what are you even talking about being a mole? You really need to read my comments prior to answering further. I stated to you that the comment obviously was not directed at you. You were not the only one in the post that made a comment (theirs was not sarcasm though) about SN and not knowing what it was. It has nothing to do with you. It's not even related at just this post, it's just something we are seeing more and more since fix the 26 came around.

 

[x_LittleAmy_x]

You should probably do some more reading before posting/commenting. There's an entire resources section that describes each method in a lot of detail.

I've just read the wiki and found out exactly what it is. Thank you.

 

[justpeachy]

You actually said I hope this is sarcasm thus cementing the fact you weren't sure. So don't question my ability to read when you don't even know what you've said. I'm not a mole so don't you dare try and make out I am preachy

My direct quote was "unless this is sarcasm" I'm not sure how that much different than saying I hope this is sarcasm. Either way, I was stating to you that I was not sure if it was and then said what I said. If it was sarcasm most people would have replied with oh yeah it was and not taken the rest of the comment personally given it was clearly not about them then....I don't really get why you don't understand this?

I've just read the wiki and found out exactly what it is. Thank you.

No problem, it can be really helpful to read the megathread too. It has a lot more info.

 

[ClairyFairy]

Omg, yes no shit, I was not sure. I literally was saying unless this is sarcasm...so why not answer with haha yes it was? And stuff would have been totally fine? I'm not a mind reader and you often cannot tell sarcasm from comments online. And what are you even talking about being a mole? You really need to read my comments prior to answering further. I stated to you that the comment obviously was not directed at you. You were not the only one in the post that made a comment (theirs was not sarcasm though) about SN and not knowing what it was. It has nothing to do with you.

I'm sorry that I thought you were taking aim at me. I thought that your *coughft26cough* remark was aimed at me. Everything I've wanted to know I've searched for myself. I feel that asking the most answered, easily available question is what is sn? And I feel that only children or people trying to ensnare us ask those questions. I hope you accept my apology (no sarcasm) I've just woken up on edge which is why I logged on to feel better but ended up arguing. I am sorry for jumping down your throat

 

[justpeachy]

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I'm sorry that I thought you were taking aim at me. I thought that your *coughft26cough* remark was aimed at me. Everything I've wanted to know I've searched for myself. I feel that asking the most answered, easily available question is what is sn? And I feel that only children or people trying to ensnare us ask those questions. I hope you accept my apology (no sarcasm) I've just woken up on edge which is why I logged on to feel better but ended up arguing. I am sorry for jumping down your throat

It's okay, I think we both were just misunderstanding each other. I also think we're on the same page about people asking those types of questions! I'm glad we could put an end to this and solve it. No apology needed <3

 

[ClairyFairy]

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It's okay, I think we both were just misunderstanding each other. I also think we're on the same page about people asking those types of questions! I'm glad we could put an end to this and solve it. No apology needed <3

Thank you x

 

[Octavina]

That won't work...

Are you 100% sure about that? How do you know. It's just that I cannot physically drink or sip without the aftertaste making me heave after a
Couple seconds that is why. Would this even make much of a difference with the antiemetics because the taste is so hard for me to drink enough. People on here might think I am being a p***y and that I don't want to die because I should just get on with it, maybe if someone is there with me they can force me to drink it again I don't know or put a plastic bag on my head or try and knock me out, no one on here will be in trouble I promise because i have written my note so police will know it is suicide

And is a really bad idea. Injecting a type of sodium in your veins? Likely won't end up dead and just horribly disfigured or if you do end up dead it will be through an absolutely awful and painful death that likely will take a significant amount of time and a considerable amount of severe pain.

You can find that answer in the resources section. Please go read that.

There is no way for me to mask the taste. My previous attempt I sucked a lollipop but a minute later I still vomited even harder. People on this thread probably think I am a drama queen bit because of my failed last attempt last year it still triggers me a lot and I might have to consider another method because of this I'm sorry

Have you spoken to your gp? I was sex abused as a kid and a grown up. Please don't suffer in silence. My father abused me and the family I told said I was a liar so I stopped talking about it. I get therapy on the nhs. It's really hard but I think it's helping process my bad memories. I wish I'd ctb last year because this therapy has given me survival instinct which I don't think I had before. Everyone tells me that I will get better so I have to just blindly trust in that because I don't have it in me to try and fail any more

I understand completely, I am sick of these pro lifers telling me that I'll just magically get over this severe trauma by some bullshit CBT therapy I have been on the waiting list for over 3 years now. I wanted to confront the man myself, I was planning on taking a train to where he lives and ask him why did he do this to me, and then I have homicidal thoughts of punching him in the face and pushing him down those stairs where that racist lady lived under him. It will never get better, I am never happy, I ruined my body with bulimia just because I wanted a child body back, instead I nearly died last week from low potassium I was hospitalised. I just want to f*****g die, I hate my life, I cannot bring grandchildren for my mother I am a failure and a burden to everyone and I am a gouvernement leech that lives off of benifits money because of mental illness. I think I will have to change my method to full suspension hanging and have someone here in the forum meet up with me and kick the chair because my SI is strong like yours.
I also think I need to livestream it so I can help others on here see that I won't suffer for too long and I will blackout in less than 20 seconds I think. My parter I choose on here can wear a mask etc or just be out of frame just some please help me I am a coward a scared person

 

[UterEntonaur]

People on here might think I am being a p***y and that I don't want to die because I should just get on with it,

I'm certain that nobody believes that, because everyone (except trolls) understand that we (the individual) decides if/when we CTB and what method to use, because it's an extremely personal choice. Please don't think that and please don't let anyone convince you otherwise - it's even against the rules to encourage someone to CTB. My inbox is always open for anyone, and I always reply to my messages, if you ever feel the need to talk.

Are you 100% sure about that? How do you know.

I really am sorry that you're having a tough time with your SN, and I wish I could give you better news, but if you do a quick search for autopsy reports (or a search on the affects that SN has on the human body and why it causes death) you'll see why. To put it another way; someone could technically inject almost any liquid into their bloodstream, most would probably kill them but it definitely wouldn't be a nice way to go, and that's the reason why nobody does it.

I don't even know if this would work, but if it's the taste that makes you want to vomit, have you thought about alternative ways to ingestion? (e.g. when hospitals use feeding tubes to feed patients - it might be worth finding out if that bypasses the tongue - or if there's other ways?).

 

[BigNarkoleptic]

View attachment 63539I need to find someone UK London based that can get into the county of S****y, I am too scared to do this alone because last time I had no antiemetics and it was traumatic for me. I have two bottles of this the other one still sealed, powered slightly yellow it's legit since it same one I bought last year. Idc who you are I just don't want to die alone I'm scared and I can't say bye to anyone

I'm in was planning tomorrow anyway

 

[Octavina]

I can't do this anymore I am doing it now I'm walking to the skatepark I either take SN or hang. PM me your discord or telegram, I need to be on phone with someone anyone
Can I carry my flip up chair with me or would that be too obvious? It's nighttime so I might risk it anyway

 

[BigNarkoleptic]

I can't do this anymore I am doing it now I'm walking to the skatepark I either take SN or hang. PM me your discord or telegram, I need to be on phone with someone anyone
Can I carry my flip up chair with me or would that be too obvious? It's nighttime so I might risk it anyway

where are you? i'd go

 

[Octavina]

where are you? i'd go

At train station trying to figure out where to meet two people

 

[BigNarkoleptic]

I wish I had two people to CTB with, I'd be out the door
it would beat being stuck in shitty england
can i come

 

[ClairyFairy]

Please be super wary of meeting up with people, anyone! You've already been abused and your body's not your own. Somebody else could take you and hurt you and just leave you alive. Anyone who is willing to kick the chair away is a murderer in the eyes of the law. Please don't do it. You're right cbt is shit and it's not meant for trauma like you've had. In the uk the nhs can offer you emdr which brings on rapid eye movement so you process those memories that you can't bear at the moment. Please if you can ring up the gp today.