Josh007

Josh007

The number zero is feeling lonely...
Nov 30, 2020
188
Feel free to rate how you're doing from 1-10 and/or give few sentences. Either one is fine too. Try to avoid responding as this is meant to be more of a vent thread. Reactions are welcomed.
 
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jimmy7754

jimmy7754

I just want to be myself again
Dec 15, 2021
508
3 - managed to work out.. feel miserable, irritated and angry at myself.. everything is going too fast
 
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Crazy4u

Crazy4u

Enlightened
Sep 29, 2021
1,318
5- managed to mob floors, sleep, and stop drinking wine and spirits
 
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t-rex

t-rex

Member
Jan 8, 2022
72
6: got a tasty coffee in my hands and the weed gummy is just kicking in. It's cold out but the sun is shining.
 
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sickofbeinghere

sickofbeinghere

sad girl
Oct 27, 2021
56
0.
 
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Chaestergram

Chaestergram

Free spirit
Nov 24, 2021
90
8 - no particular reason
 
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gottago222

gottago222

paranoia bae
Dec 21, 2021
275
10 no intrusive thoughts
 
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motel rooms

motel rooms

Survivor of incest. Gay. Please don't PM me.
Apr 13, 2021
7,084
Slanted and enchanted.
 
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BeansOfRequirement

BeansOfRequirement

Behind the guilt was compassion
Jan 26, 2021
5,747
5. Coming to terms with the underlying cause of my inceldom, which is a deep-seated attachment disorder/style. Seems to come about from the child realizing that no one gives a fuck about them, and then learns to LARP as self-sufficient. Have never been able to form friendships (basically just been able to play/collaborate without forming bonds, somehow), have never missed anyone. Just really textbook dismissive/avoidant, last person to raise hand in class, never engage socially, reject crushes (like wtf), etc.

So, even if I wasn't a loser man-child NEET, I would only be able to have casual sex/short-term flings (after I fixed my bent penis). Would rather have that than nothing, but I can't even have that, of course. Well, now I'm at least not judgemental about the whole "monogamy" thing, anymore. Was just repressing/projecting/coping in some weird way, like when people that are secretly gay starts hating gays. It is easier to cope with not having access to casual sex than it is to cope with not having access to "true love/life-long romance and trust, etc", though.

Feel like I have more control over the situation, but nothing has changed in terms of suicidality or maybe even pain-levels. My options are basically to either suffer a lot to be able to have an income (not even guaranteed, worst resume on the planet) and buy stuff (not sure what to buy, maybe games and alcohol, protein for gym, won't be able to move out anyway) or to keep NEETing. Then, in some amount of time (not sure yet, prob 1 or 2 years), I'll hopefully be able to die.

Sry for the long vent, heh.
 
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Mixo

Mixo

Blue
Aug 2, 2020
773
About a 6 today. Surprisingly higher than usual.
 
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motel rooms

motel rooms

Survivor of incest. Gay. Please don't PM me.
Apr 13, 2021
7,084
Crooked rain, crooked rain.
 
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Insomniac

𝔄 𝔲 𝔱 𝔦 𝔰 𝔪
May 21, 2021
1,357
6.5 - I feel normal/energised most of the time although hit every 8 hours by violent waves of suicidal ideations.. sometimes homicidal too lol.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
38,540
I always feel at the lowest, I am very tired of living and I never want to be alive. There is so much dread for the future. My life is very pointless.
 
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sickofbeinghere

sickofbeinghere

sad girl
Oct 27, 2021
56
-1
 
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bleeeeeep

✧・゚: *✧・゚:*
Jan 5, 2022
69
5.5 - actually not too bad considering i volunteered with a bunch of new (very boisterous, sometimes rude) kids and have been constantly meeting new people for the past few days. but i'm really tired and beating myself up for not working out. i have been having really vivid dreams again recently and they are also exhausting. but i have definitely felt worse than this, so i won't complain too much more
 
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NotSureToEndure

NotSureToEndure

Professor of not a lot
Aug 17, 2020
114
I'm gonna give a solid 8/10 atm. I had a banging mexican meal tonight and a couple of beers, and work has suddenly got more promising. I'm self employed and have been feeling a bit mixed about my feelings on carrying on with it this year. Well I suddenly got some dates in my calendar and feel some confidence in the next few months so that is good. I'm probably riding high on the mexican beer combo, but i'm in a goodish place right now.. a hell of a lot better than last week that's for sure. Got some other promising stuff coming up too. I actually hit a real low over Xmas.. and was preparing some things for potential exit but I think i'll be holding off for a bit to see if things continue to improve.

I often get highs following lows.. and lows following highs, so i'll just try to enjoy this for now 🙃
 
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Foresight

Foresight

Enlightened
Jun 14, 2019
1,393
I'm a 4. I'm coming out of a psychotic episode and I feel dizzy. My head hurts and I still feel detached from reality. My mind is manic but my body is drained. I'm trying to have a normal day. I don't know when I'll feel normal again.
 
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Josh007

Josh007

The number zero is feeling lonely...
Nov 30, 2020
188
3 Everything is so hard 🤦‍♂️ everything takes so much more energy. Even pulling myself out of this.
 
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Mixo

Mixo

Blue
Aug 2, 2020
773
I'd say I'm at a solid 4. I just quit a shit job and I have few prospects for my future aside from more wage slavery. Life seems pretty bleak.
 
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ImsooDone1N

ImsooDone1N

Arcanist
Nov 22, 2018
846
I'm really low. I feel like my life is just pointless- no-more like a sick joke on me & I am suffering badly. I very much wish I would not wake up.
 
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Foresight

Foresight

Enlightened
Jun 14, 2019
1,393
5. My psychosis is still here days later? I don't know if psychosis is the right term, it might be depersonalization-derealization. It's like I'm coming down from a shroom trip. My energy is returning slowly though so I can move now. I don't know who I am. Wild
 
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Night_Crew

Member
Oct 23, 2021
41
I'm not doing great right at the moment. Evenings and weekends tend to be a struggle but tonight is chronically harder than usual.
 
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Why Not???

Why Not???

Not afraid of the dark
Jan 12, 2022
15
0 because I am a zero in life.
 
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Unicornsrnot4dislife

Not meant for this world…….
Nov 12, 2021
128
5/10 maybe a bit high, but yea. I am super stressed and just feeling numb inside I guess. I had my exams today and feeling like I did badly and that I am crap really. :( So I am having several drinks to counteract the feeling...or not.
 
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TheBestUsernameEver

Student
Dec 26, 2021
111
7/8
 
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Remember-Me-Not

I think I'm going to be okay.
Dec 10, 2019
91
3. I just have this sadness I can't seem to shake off. The people around me have been really draining on my energy. They're not really considerate of other's feelings, and I think I just overdrew on my energy interacting with them. I'm now in energy debt and I just don't want to talk to anyone or do anything. (I said energy debt as a funny way to say I'm just freaking tired)
 
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Foresight

Foresight

Enlightened
Jun 14, 2019
1,393
8/10 I had a full day of no psychosis yesterday. I had a good night, a good morning so far. There was beautiful snowfall yesterday. I'm feeling driven.
 
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Sherri

Sherri

Archangel
Sep 28, 2020
13,794
8 today but it Can be 3 tomorrow
 
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Foresight

Foresight

Enlightened
Jun 14, 2019
1,393
That's very true, especially coming out of an episode like that. Tomorrow might be 9 though. As long as it's not -1, which I have experienced, I think I'll keep going.
 
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Bedrock48

Bedrock48

Dreadful damage, dreadful destiny
Feb 1, 2021
540
6/10, very tired today and wish I had the energy to do more but had some delicious pasta earlier to make up for it
 
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