Venting Changed sh method, freaking out

[motheaten]

I usually self harm by scratching my arm until it bleeds. I liked it because i could get really aggressive without worrying about going too deep or doing irreversible damage and scarring was minimal. But i had some sort of a breakdown yesterday and I just grabbed a knife and cut myself and it went way deeper than i intended to go and I'm hoping it doesn't get infected because i can't tell anybody about it and I'm so scared...
Nobody around me even knows how bad my mental health is, I do so many things that are really me crying for help and it just gets ignored....
At this point if somebody were to hust ask, "are you okay?" I'd probably break down and tell them everything, but nobody does so i don't ....

 

[opheliaoveragain]

make sure to clean it well and wrap it

 

[soledad.virgen]

it'll be very painful but if you can please disinfect it and keep it bandaged. if you keep cleaning and bandaging it i think that'll be your best option