Method Changed my mind: let's go for SN

[Kikoo Loool]

Sorry guys, the seller has deleted his account ln the well-known website from which I orderes meto. I really wish I could have helpes you. Nevertheless I found it very easily, one of the first three links when I googled the name of the product.

 

[Kikoo Loool]

I'm currently writing drafts of suicide notes to send by delayed e-mail through Later.io. This service seems reliable. I'll test it in the next days to be sure of it. I'll send at least three e-mails : my family, a trustworthy coworker, my SS friend (if she's still alive at that time). I have two bottles of SN. I'll use the first one to taste it, maybe in a few minutes at office.

 

[Kikoo Loool]

Received Tagamet today.

 

[Carina]

I mean, even MS Outlook (assuming you connect it to gmail, and others) has a built-in delay send feature. Granted you have to keep the program running.

 

[Kikoo Loool]

I went to the psychiatrist for the first time a few days go. My new attending physician sent me to see her because of my high level of anxiety. The psychiatrist doesn't think I'm suicidal, anyway she just described me the depression symptoms and asked to come back if I recognize them. Of course I didn't say I've benn actively suicidal for nearly one year and already have all the supplies. So I just got some benzo.

 

[Kikoo Loool]

Ctb now occupies my mind 24/7. I stay alive only because I'm looking forward to meet my ss friend for a one week holiday in spring. It may be a ctb partnership, depending on their mood.

 

[ScorpiusDragon]

Ctb now occupies my mind 24/7. I stay alive only because I'm looking forward to meet my ss friend for a one week holiday in spring. It may be a ctb partnership, depending on their mood.

As I said earlier, feel free to make your own decision. I don't want you to feel pressured to stay just for me. If you decide to ctb before our meetup, I'm more than willing to talk to you in your final moments, so you feel less alone. You felt alone most of your life and if I can make your final moments more bearable, that would be enough. I'd love to meet you one day but it doesn't feel fair to ask you to stay alive if you no longer want to.

 

[Kikoo Loool]

Today I put very little SN in a glass (less than a very little spoon) and poured half a glass of water. SN dissolved instantly. I drank the glass. It had bad taste but not as salty as I imagined (probably because I took very few of it) and I didn't gag.
I feel a bit numb and drowsy and have a slight headache. It may be placebo effect though.

 

[shallow]

Today I put very little SN in a glass (less than a very little spoon) and poured half a glass of water. SN dissolved instantly. I drank the glass. It had bad taste but not as salty as I imagined (probably because I took very few of it) and I didn't gag.
I feel a bit numb and drowsy and have a slight headache. It may be placebo effect though.

Did you do this to test the quality of the sn?

 

[Kikoo Loool]

Did you do this to test the quality of the sn?

No, it was just a stupid idea which went through my mind brutally. I wanted to have an idea of the taste once melted in water. I don't know how I could test the quality of my SN though.

 

[shallow]

Be carefull please. You might want to know how it taste but you Were not planning to go today.

 

[Kikoo Loool]

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Thank you very much, I may try to test it's purity. Today was just a kind of morbid game, I think I needed to make it even more concrete.