i've tried everything, luckily completed my bucket list too so now i'm just having a nice warm bath and gunna rewatch my favourite show all night:> i might not even sleep until around 4/5 and do it then. i've chosen to do SN. i am a little scared but i think that's just my SI kicking in
I'm planning on using SN too. Have you followed the 48hr regime? I'm just trying my Meto for any side effects. So far 24hrs with nothing wrong.
the method i'm doing is via capsules and my antipsychotics have anti vomiting properties to it. i haven't eaten for the past day anyway so i won't start now
Oh right hope all goes as you want it. I'm planning on taking 25g SN dissolved in 100ml water.
yes i'm still on the fence of if i want to take 20 or 25g of it, as i'd need to take 25 pills opposed to 20, i can't swallow salty water so it wouldn't work for me:(
I've already tried 15g table salt dissolved in 100ml water and drank it ok. So looks like it's a good method for me.
I can only wish you reach the peace you are dreaming of. All my hopes and thoughts are with you
well i'm still here for about under a day:D
Well I hope I'm brave enough to go through with it. I guess it should be exciting in a way that I'd be leaving this place when I choose and not just waiting for old age or whatever other reason to die. I often wonder what's next if anything? Do we just go back to where ever we came from before we were born? All very deep really.
there's a thing to tell young children and dying animals, that there's a rainbow bridge, and that's where they'll be going, comforting them. i like to think that's what it is, crossing the rainbow bridge
Well I hope you find your rainbow bridge and the peace you are seeking as we all are.
don't be sorry! i'm glad you enjoyed my company, i hope i made your life even a little more bearable, as you did mine!:>I'm really sorry it's come to this for you. I really appreciated your messages and how genuinely kind and warm you are; especially in your horrible circumstances.
I'm also sorry you had to deal with some nasty people here on top of it all...
Safe travels
if you ever go through with it, i'll personally greet you on the other side of that rainbow bridge!
Well that would be something to look forward to. I hope I can find your Rainbow Bridge someday soon and leave this place behind.
thank you, you and many other people made my life more tolerable on my last days, i thank you from the bottom of my heart for that
i'm feeling a bit blue about it too, i've been crying for the past hour because i just thought back about how my life went, what i personally could've done to not be this way, what i could've done to help others. i usually do this before i have a serious consideration, and i find an excuse to not do it, but it's different now. i don't have that excuse, i have no desire to carry on. all i want to do is do it now - but i know that would just be out of impulse and i should keep to my initial plan for perhaps i may change my mind. i have about 5 cigarettes left, and by the last one i should decide whether or not this is what i want. i think that's a good plan. i'll miss you tooI hope you will find the peace that you deserve.
We will miss you.
I feel sad
i think what did it for me was realising that doing that, only ever really hurt myself. you sit and think about the past, thinking what you could've done, pointless. because you didn't and you can't anymore. when i realised that, i started feeling this rotting feeling, like the air freshener was no longer working to disguise the stench, all this time i was thinking of the past i let myself decay, and i don't want to get better anymore
thank you for your kind words, and don't be sorry!
i just watched episode 4 so i don't even need to wait till tomorrow, a little underwhelming but yes, that's what made me hold on for a while. i studied film studies actually, worked in cinema too! i'm a sucker for good films and shows
haha it's the first time i've called myself that since 2016? usually tell people it's natalie so they think i'm english. ;)
