I simply can't keep up with life, I believe I have a learning disability or just significantly terrible memory and comprhension. I listen to people talk and I simply don't understand how they are able to recal and tell stories about their life. I feel so different from everybody, I never have anything to talk about. I can't keep up at work either, I forget too many details. I feel as if I don't learn anything passively. An example of this is driving places, I can drive somewhere 20 times and still need to use a GPS cause I have no idea where I'm going.
When I'm not in the midst of a major depressive episode I put in major effort into my job trying to learn and remember things, and yet I still can't keep up. Not to mention hobbies or anything that requires learning and performing a skill.
It makes me feel so incredibly isolated, I'm 24 now and have lost all hope of things changing, I've put major effort into my life and still these feelings don't shake. I see no future, I've put off ctb for over 6 years and now I only see things getting worse, the pressure is simply too much and I can't keep up.
Does anyone relate?
When I'm not in the midst of a major depressive episode I put in major effort into my job trying to learn and remember things, and yet I still can't keep up. Not to mention hobbies or anything that requires learning and performing a skill.
It makes me feel so incredibly isolated, I'm 24 now and have lost all hope of things changing, I've put major effort into my life and still these feelings don't shake. I see no future, I've put off ctb for over 6 years and now I only see things getting worse, the pressure is simply too much and I can't keep up.
Does anyone relate?
