Can't Describe, too much.

[Archness]

At times, I feel so much, but it's just hopeless for anyone to comprehend.

It can be overwhelming, to the point I can't focus too well, I can't describe it.

These moments, when I feel the most, is sadly, also when I can write the least.

I'm just finished, heck, right now the screen I'm typing on seems... Tilted? Like, I'm pretty sure that's down to it being late or some health issue. Well IDK, I DON'T KARE. I'm just kinda surprised I can even write this much, feels off.

I wonder what a brainscan of myself would look like right now? My body has been feeling like it was intensifying and going upper, my Red Bloodcell Count is also pretty high, so idk anything. I feel like not talking, or communicating. But these overwhelming emotions are alot, sometimes, I have such all-consuming hate for this world, well, I've been feeling alot of that today.

Maybe tomorrow I'll go and describe my recent experiences or just being alive in more detail, elsewhere tho.

 

[LunarLight]

I feel for you, OP. Failing while so much people succeed… I can't imagine how hollow you must feel atm.

 

[wren-briar]

Could you audio record yourself and then transcribe later?

 

[SteamaHorns]

I relate. So many feelings that you're aware of but are incapable of understanding.

 

[Archness]

Could you audio record yourself and then transcribe later?

NO. My voice is very distinct, as with my accent. I also live with others and am afraid of them overhearing anything I say. It'd just be pretty risky and it'd probably find it's way to the public, where there's a realistic chance I get ID and DOXXED by one of the many people who knew my for how I talked.

Uncle Ted got ratted out by his cousin who recognized his writing style. It only took ONE person and ONE distinction to ID him. So safe-to-say I'm not taking the risk. I could be corpse-husband for all you know, my speech. mannerisms, and eccentricities are just that distinctive even without any visuals.