Cant be sober anymore

[cheese.out]

Either Im drunk or on opioids and/or benzos. I just thought about how many days of the week Im not sober and I feel that the days where Im sober are getting more and more stressful. It just feels too good to just feel the euphoria of the opioid or the feeling of relaxation of a benzo, but I still try to have as many sober days as possible but its getting harder. Yesterday took some tilidin, now Im a bit drunk - I guess I had better coping mechs in the past lol

 

[AllFoxedOut]

I'm with you there... currently I'm in a psych ward so I'm forced to remain sober. but my body craves anything that'll alter my consciousness even a little bit. cigarettes, SH, weed (I've never even tried weed). I just really hate being me.

 

[Hotsackage]

whatever works man

 

[lokabe82]

Sometimes you just have to take things like this for what they are. I tried to go sober and I could keep going with it...but I don't care. I want this time to be as comfortable and pleasing as I can make it. If I want to get drunk, then I'll get drunk. Nothing to lose here.

 

[starlover]

I feel you. Right now I'm in a sobriety program for booze and weed (edibles). I miss them; makes life harder and dull without.

 

[attell4]

My downfall has been alcohol. But I chose it. I don't really understand how people exist here without it.

 

[cheese.out]

Sometimes you just have to take things like this for what they are. I tried to go sober and I could keep going with it...but I don't care. I want this time to be as comfortable and pleasing as I can make it. If I want to get drunk, then I'll get drunk. Nothing to lose here.

Yea youre right - maybe the sober days wont be that stressful if I dont go that hard on myself on the sober days.