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32yroldloser

32yroldloser

Student
Jan 27, 2025
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Found a method to kill myself, just waiting for my last paycheck to come before i do it.

To make a sob story short, i've had a horrible life growing up and when i got to an adult age it was my chance to prove them wrong. 3 months later i got long covid (chronic disease hooray!)

I've long covid for a year now. Im not even old enough to drink. Lost all hope in living and now i need your help to kill myself.

Problem is i get scared very easily but i truly have nothing to live for. Im also scared of what awaits me in the afterlife.

I don't want to cast negativity but at least in my opinion this is lifelong so im done.

No one fucking takes it seriously, even my doctor told me it was "just an idea". This is a common trend with diseases like mine, just lookup how they treated people with CFS for decades and centuries.

Thanks for reading my Ted talk
 
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The Morningstar

The Morningstar

Be absolute. Be yourself, until you bleed.
May 4, 2025
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long covid (chronic disease

at least in my opinion this is lifelong so im done
I can't imagine it works for all people, but hydroxyzine is used off-label to treat long COVID. I am essentially cured of mine because of it. It also helps with my anxiety, allergies, and insomnia. 30mg dose each day; don't give a shit if it's "bad" to use for as long as I have been: my liver will be fine because I take good care of it otherwise.
Of course, you didn't ask for advice on how to live, so I've hidden my response behind a button out of respect for you and your autonomy.
Also, I would be fucking floored if your doctor didn't already recommend what I did, so there's a reasonable chance you've already tried it, in which case I am sorry to hear that.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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It really sounds like you've suffered a lot, it's just so cruel and dreadful to me how there's all this suffering in existing but anyway I wish you the best, I hope that you find the relief you search for.
 
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Observer13

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Tibetan Book Of The Dead on YouTube.
 
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