katara
tiktok.com/@katara3250
- Mar 17, 2022
- 405
Hey sorry to hear about that. If you ever want to chat sometime let me know. Only family I have is my mom I never even see my family on holidays. I never see anyone, completely isolated where I live.
Pretty much in a similar situation. Though at this point, there's not much I can share; I can only mention how crappy life can be a number of times before it starts getting old.
katara
tiktok.com/@katara3250
- Mar 17, 2022
- 405
Exactly like I get tired of complaining about my chronic fatigue and my hopeless situation.
themisfell
Member
- May 31, 2023
- 84
do you mind if I ask what you do like to do? i'll be honest, i probably fall more into the line of how you described people, but i'm still curious about what you do like. maybe myself or other people who share interests with you could get along.
I too have nothing. No friends, no income, no skills, no future... Basically no value... I'm a "thing" that wakes up, eats bad food, watches videos, takes a shit, and goes back to sleep, to then do it all over the next day.
The thing is, we are not rare occurrences... The structure produces lives like ours *en masse*, and on purpose.
My post won't solve anything, but my point is that it's not something you're guilty of.
The thing is, we are not rare occurrences... The structure produces lives like ours *en masse*, and on purpose.
My post won't solve anything, but my point is that it's not something you're guilty of.
amerie
an earthworm sprinkled with salt
- Oct 6, 2024
- 749
Most people share their wins more than their failures, even people here, even me. I respect you for being upfront and not trying to sugarcoat anything and being brave about your circumstances.
I have ADHD, I can't drive even though I'm 19, I can barely keep friends, I used to eat lunch in the bathroom stall in Highschool because my friend group abandoned me for not being good enough for them, I hated school and often slept through classes, my room is seldom not a mess and 90% of the time is filled with moldy food and trash for weeks at a time, I collect toys, I still watch peppa pig, I stutter or clunk words together, I talk to myself because I have no one, I sometimes don't shower or go outside for days, I'm half black but I can't braid and my hair is damaged from high tension styles and excess heat, I'm considered ugly in my moms culture, I'm obese, I've never been in a relationship, and I spend most of my days doing absolutely nothing other than doing chores and going to the gym.
It's okay to not be okay. You don't owe anyone anything, but you owe yourself grace. Only you know what you've been through and why your life is the way it is. Though, you should get a job to raise money at the very least. File for unemployment.
I have ADHD, I can't drive even though I'm 19, I can barely keep friends, I used to eat lunch in the bathroom stall in Highschool because my friend group abandoned me for not being good enough for them, I hated school and often slept through classes, my room is seldom not a mess and 90% of the time is filled with moldy food and trash for weeks at a time, I collect toys, I still watch peppa pig, I stutter or clunk words together, I talk to myself because I have no one, I sometimes don't shower or go outside for days, I'm half black but I can't braid and my hair is damaged from high tension styles and excess heat, I'm considered ugly in my moms culture, I'm obese, I've never been in a relationship, and I spend most of my days doing absolutely nothing other than doing chores and going to the gym.
It's okay to not be okay. You don't owe anyone anything, but you owe yourself grace. Only you know what you've been through and why your life is the way it is. Though, you should get a job to raise money at the very least. File for unemployment.
I agree, we are produced to be like this on purpose, to make the others feel and look better and more valued :(
katara
tiktok.com/@katara3250
- Mar 17, 2022
- 405
Thanks for what you said in that last part. I feel guilty a lot, bc of course nobody wants to be this way. Even obese people have more quality of life then me. They have chances, they have people who root for them. I've never had that bc ppl can probably sense the failure and the fact I already lost, and that hurts.
What type of stuff do you watch? I used to love YouTube but now it's all commentary channels. Sometimes I watch them but it just feels like it doesn't have content that gets my attention so I started using TikTok and tbh I prefer that. Feel free to message me if you ever want to talk.
Please don't take offence with this but have you tried going to a church where there are people around your age? Even if you don't believe, i think many pretend or just join in to get places and out of a rut. Big churches with an active youth movement are full of lonely young people who don't fit in anywhere and if you have youth on your side you will be favoured and given opportunities. Of cause you will be expected to go along to some degree, but that's up to you to explore if it's worth it or not.
katara
tiktok.com/@katara3250
- Mar 17, 2022
- 405
Thanks for the advice but I was raised religious so I don't think I could do that again. Also I just don't really feel any warmth from religious ppl, that's been my experience.
darkchickenlord
Member
- Aug 23, 2025
- 7
I get the feeling. I am nothing and have nothing, even though I really try to not be this way.
I go to the gym every day, i eat clean, i read books, i go to church to meet people, i go to therapy to fix my issues, i work on my business
But it literally amounts to nothing at all. I didn't finish high school i didnt go to college i dont have a single friend or family member that likes to be around me, i spend my entire day alone and suffering hoping today will be the day something changes
But it never is
I go to the gym every day, i eat clean, i read books, i go to church to meet people, i go to therapy to fix my issues, i work on my business
But it literally amounts to nothing at all. I didn't finish high school i didnt go to college i dont have a single friend or family member that likes to be around me, i spend my entire day alone and suffering hoping today will be the day something changes
But it never is
katara
tiktok.com/@katara3250
- Mar 17, 2022
- 405
Well I think it's really empowering that you do so many things and have really put in effort. But ya I get it, none of it amounts to anything if you are alone and unhappy. I have nobody to do anything with. I have nobody to call when I feel ill. I often now feel like I'm trapped in some kind of horror video game where everyday is basically the same. My mom keeps me here and refuses to let me leave because if I leave I could be happy and I'm not allowed to be happy or free. I have to remain trapped otherwise I'm the worst person ever. I'm tired of being alone all the time. I haven't seen any of my family in years. They don't care about me, I don't blame them, it just hurts yknow? I wish I knew what it was like to be normal.
