Its Confession and Admission time:
Can someone here save my life? I'm only trying to CTB due to a job loss. I can easily work remotely. Read please. If I can get a job I will not CTB.
I promise, I will live, I will live for those that didn't make it and chose to CTB. I will not CTB and go forward in life, if anyone can please help and help me stop suffering its been 10 years, of nothing but contract gigs.
I would always be eternally grateful to anyone that help as you could save a life, My confidence is shattered I'm crying as I write this. I'm 45 MBA with nothing spotty in my background.
Its a long read Im so sorry but anyone please help. I can remote to the USA as well anytime zone. I just NEED REAL WORK
If you can help me find a job here in Canada, it would have to be remote so I can move back to Calgary as I stuck in Regina. Thats ideal.
Here is the situation and below I will talk about my work- Thanks in advance for reading! Some paragraphs are ALL CAPS but thats because they are super important. It's not me yelling.
This is 100% genuine post.I'm extremely suicidal, I'm on here SASU. I have my plans and methods worked out. I can't handle sitting on Indeed and sending out over 5,000 applications and only a few small contract roles. I was forced to sell my home and move in with my senile aging mother and live off a small amount of investments.
I've sold all my possessions like my 30k guitar collection, my art, my prized action figures, vinyl records, clothes, jewelry everything. My most prized possessions are all sold and being an introvert it hurts more as even the smallest of things like a toy, CD etc has sentimental value.
I have no kids/ wives/ gf/ or dependents or many friends and most family don't like me as I don't have anything in common with them. They are just different folks. I'm an introvert that likes books, gym and gaming and that's it.
I have spent a decade on Indeed applying to anything I can even today I was on there. I can't even get a labour job with a referral from an old friend. I couldn't even get an interview. I have even applied to internships for students
There's literally nothing wrong with me, there's no reason why it should be this hard. I have done it all- Networking, trying to use connections, I tried living in 4 different cities and provinces. Yes I packed and full stop moved and tried different cities.
I can't just do anything or any job as that's what I have been doing to keep a float for the past ten years. I need more experience in certain areas but I CAN'T GET MY FOOT IN THE DOOR ANYWHERE. It's impossible. I'm 45 and I cry constantly every morning. I avoid socializing due to the humiliation of this. I've been in isolation for 10 years to not spend money.
I don't even go to the gym anymore and I used to go 5 days a week for over 20 years, so I'm all skinny now.
I'm getting closer and closer to suicide and trying this post as a last resort. I'm 100% dead serious. I have the method, the plan, and my will worked out. This is my ultimate call for help. CAN SOMEONE PLEASE DO SOMETHING AND HELP ME. I NEED A JOB TO REJOIN SOCIETY AND HAVE AN INCOME AGAIN.
**Let me state I don't have a criminal record, Im clean and presentable, dependable, no drugs, no drinking or smoking.
I CANNOT SPEND ANYMORE TIME ON INDEED APPLYING AND GETTING NOTHING (10 years). IT'S BREAKING ME ITS KILLING ME. I NEED A JOB TO BE ABLE to PUT THIS BEHIND ME IF I CAN FIND A JOB I WONT KILL MYSELF. MY EMOTIONS/ CONFIDENCE ARE SHATTERED, ITS FULL STOP PTSD. I've done maybe 70+ interviews and nothing except for small contract type jobs that pay nothing. I almost breakdown in interviews as my confidence is so bad due to all the rejections. It's humiliating. I just assume it will be another rejection
I miss my home that I sold in Calgary, I tried to go back to my home town in Victoria and no connections could help. Im now in Regina staying with my mother whose cognitions are a disaster.
She's senile and doest have much time left and beyond broke. We're stuck in her 650 sql place in Regina with 2 dogs crapping all over the place and all my stuff in boxes and plastic containers. There's no room to even walk as trip over their Pee Pads. I sleep on the floor. Her place is the dirtiest, filthiest condo I've ever seen and I'm a clean freak. It's hell for me. Her senility is so bad we can hardly converse. She refuses to help clean and everything in the condo is broken busted and in a state of disrepair EVERYTHING. Its smelly grimy and disgusting.
About me and my work :
So I'm 45 and used to work in finance as a trader in Calgary Canada. The last company I was at was bought out as they were going under. I was let go after a couple years due to missing a sales quota. That's it. Everyone there was cut except for senior staff who moved on into the new company. I was new and not senior.
This was in 2016, so since then I have had off and on unrelated jobs that had nothing to with what I did before which is fine as I want to branch out from being a trader. But none have been sustainable.
**I have 2 bachelors and an MBA, I don't want a remote sales job. I'm going to have to work remote….. as if anyone can help me out from online they would have too.
*I have done some credit analyst work, eCommerce work, Tech Support work, and basic accounting. All of them have been short term BS roles that didn't give me enough experience to get something better.
I don't have a criminal record, I don't look weird, I'm easy to get along with, and have great manners and clean up and present well. I also don't, drink smoke or do drugs.
**I just can't do sales anymore. Im not that great at it and sick of it.
I WOULD PREFER SOMETHING IN FINANCE AND RELATED FIELDS, FINTECH ETC. I AM ALSO OPEN TO COMPLIANCE OPERATIONS AND SUPPORT ANALYST ROLES.
I AM OPEN TO DOING OTHER SIMILAR THINGS, OR EVEN SOMETHING BRAND NEW AND JUST NEED MORE EXPERIENCE IN MANY THINGS AND MOST PLACES WONT TRAIN. I NEED A JOB AND NEW TRAINING BADLY ITS THE ONLY WAY AND IM NOT FINDING ANYTHING NO MATTER HOW MANY APPLICATIONS I SEND OUT.
IF ANYONE CAN HELP AND ITS A NEW FIELD, YES I NEED MORE EXPERIENCE, BUT THATS WHY I CANT FIND A JOB IN THE FIRST PLACE I WAS STUCK IN A NICHE JOB FOR FOREVER AND CANT BREAK INTO ANYTHING NEW.
But back to my main point, Yes Im 100% suicidal its as real and genuine as it gets and it occurred to me to try something else maybe it known publicly somehow and ask for help as Cant find a way out of this.
I NEED SOMETHING REMOTE THATS MORE THAN JUST SALES AND CUSTOMER SERVICE, I HAVE BEEN DOING THOSE JOBS TO FILL THE TIME AND THEY ARE ALL DEAD END.
Can someone please help me get a job and get my foot in the door new training so I can build a life again? I would be eternally grateful.
Once again there's nothing wrong with me, I have zero skeletons in my closet, never been in trouble with the law.
PLEASE DM ME FOR ANY OPPORTUNITIES, THEY WOULD LIKELY HAVE TO BE REMOTE, I WOULD HAVE TO LEARN NEW THINGS. BUT IM 100% SUICIDAL I CANT GO LIVING ON INDEED APPLYING FOR EVEN MORE YEARS AND GETTING NOTHING WITH NO JOB YOU CANT TRUELY LIVE OR GO ON ITS SOUL CRUSHING.
I CANNOT SPEND MY LIFE ON INDEED I NEED HELP AND NEW START AND A LUCKY BREAK.
IF I LACK EXPERIENCE I'LL LEARN IT. I JUST NEED HELP SO BADLY, SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME GETOUT OF THIS RUT.
I REALLY WANT TO LIVE, BUT AFTER 10 YEARS I DON'T HAVE ANY FIGHT LEFT IN ME.
THANK YOU- IF YOU CAN HELP ME, AND WISH TO TALK FURTHER DM ME. SERIOUS PEOPLE ONLY. NO TIME WASTERS.
I WILL KEEP BUMPING THIS THREAD AS I WANT TO BE SAVED
Im not being dramatic but please someone save my life. DM Me if you can help me get a job
Can someone here save my life? I'm only trying to CTB due to a job loss. I can easily work remotely. Read please. If I can get a job I will not CTB.
I promise, I will live, I will live for those that didn't make it and chose to CTB. I will not CTB and go forward in life, if anyone can please help and help me stop suffering its been 10 years, of nothing but contract gigs.
I would always be eternally grateful to anyone that help as you could save a life, My confidence is shattered I'm crying as I write this. I'm 45 MBA with nothing spotty in my background.
Its a long read Im so sorry but anyone please help. I can remote to the USA as well anytime zone. I just NEED REAL WORK
If you can help me find a job here in Canada, it would have to be remote so I can move back to Calgary as I stuck in Regina. Thats ideal.
Here is the situation and below I will talk about my work- Thanks in advance for reading! Some paragraphs are ALL CAPS but thats because they are super important. It's not me yelling.
This is 100% genuine post.I'm extremely suicidal, I'm on here SASU. I have my plans and methods worked out. I can't handle sitting on Indeed and sending out over 5,000 applications and only a few small contract roles. I was forced to sell my home and move in with my senile aging mother and live off a small amount of investments.
I've sold all my possessions like my 30k guitar collection, my art, my prized action figures, vinyl records, clothes, jewelry everything. My most prized possessions are all sold and being an introvert it hurts more as even the smallest of things like a toy, CD etc has sentimental value.
I have no kids/ wives/ gf/ or dependents or many friends and most family don't like me as I don't have anything in common with them. They are just different folks. I'm an introvert that likes books, gym and gaming and that's it.
I have spent a decade on Indeed applying to anything I can even today I was on there. I can't even get a labour job with a referral from an old friend. I couldn't even get an interview. I have even applied to internships for students
There's literally nothing wrong with me, there's no reason why it should be this hard. I have done it all- Networking, trying to use connections, I tried living in 4 different cities and provinces. Yes I packed and full stop moved and tried different cities.
I can't just do anything or any job as that's what I have been doing to keep a float for the past ten years. I need more experience in certain areas but I CAN'T GET MY FOOT IN THE DOOR ANYWHERE. It's impossible. I'm 45 and I cry constantly every morning. I avoid socializing due to the humiliation of this. I've been in isolation for 10 years to not spend money.
I don't even go to the gym anymore and I used to go 5 days a week for over 20 years, so I'm all skinny now.
I'm getting closer and closer to suicide and trying this post as a last resort. I'm 100% dead serious. I have the method, the plan, and my will worked out. This is my ultimate call for help. CAN SOMEONE PLEASE DO SOMETHING AND HELP ME. I NEED A JOB TO REJOIN SOCIETY AND HAVE AN INCOME AGAIN.
**Let me state I don't have a criminal record, Im clean and presentable, dependable, no drugs, no drinking or smoking.
I CANNOT SPEND ANYMORE TIME ON INDEED APPLYING AND GETTING NOTHING (10 years). IT'S BREAKING ME ITS KILLING ME. I NEED A JOB TO BE ABLE to PUT THIS BEHIND ME IF I CAN FIND A JOB I WONT KILL MYSELF. MY EMOTIONS/ CONFIDENCE ARE SHATTERED, ITS FULL STOP PTSD. I've done maybe 70+ interviews and nothing except for small contract type jobs that pay nothing. I almost breakdown in interviews as my confidence is so bad due to all the rejections. It's humiliating. I just assume it will be another rejection
I miss my home that I sold in Calgary, I tried to go back to my home town in Victoria and no connections could help. Im now in Regina staying with my mother whose cognitions are a disaster.
She's senile and doest have much time left and beyond broke. We're stuck in her 650 sql place in Regina with 2 dogs crapping all over the place and all my stuff in boxes and plastic containers. There's no room to even walk as trip over their Pee Pads. I sleep on the floor. Her place is the dirtiest, filthiest condo I've ever seen and I'm a clean freak. It's hell for me. Her senility is so bad we can hardly converse. She refuses to help clean and everything in the condo is broken busted and in a state of disrepair EVERYTHING. Its smelly grimy and disgusting.
About me and my work :
So I'm 45 and used to work in finance as a trader in Calgary Canada. The last company I was at was bought out as they were going under. I was let go after a couple years due to missing a sales quota. That's it. Everyone there was cut except for senior staff who moved on into the new company. I was new and not senior.
This was in 2016, so since then I have had off and on unrelated jobs that had nothing to with what I did before which is fine as I want to branch out from being a trader. But none have been sustainable.
**I have 2 bachelors and an MBA, I don't want a remote sales job. I'm going to have to work remote….. as if anyone can help me out from online they would have too.
*I have done some credit analyst work, eCommerce work, Tech Support work, and basic accounting. All of them have been short term BS roles that didn't give me enough experience to get something better.
I don't have a criminal record, I don't look weird, I'm easy to get along with, and have great manners and clean up and present well. I also don't, drink smoke or do drugs.
**I just can't do sales anymore. Im not that great at it and sick of it.
I WOULD PREFER SOMETHING IN FINANCE AND RELATED FIELDS, FINTECH ETC. I AM ALSO OPEN TO COMPLIANCE OPERATIONS AND SUPPORT ANALYST ROLES.
I AM OPEN TO DOING OTHER SIMILAR THINGS, OR EVEN SOMETHING BRAND NEW AND JUST NEED MORE EXPERIENCE IN MANY THINGS AND MOST PLACES WONT TRAIN. I NEED A JOB AND NEW TRAINING BADLY ITS THE ONLY WAY AND IM NOT FINDING ANYTHING NO MATTER HOW MANY APPLICATIONS I SEND OUT.
IF ANYONE CAN HELP AND ITS A NEW FIELD, YES I NEED MORE EXPERIENCE, BUT THATS WHY I CANT FIND A JOB IN THE FIRST PLACE I WAS STUCK IN A NICHE JOB FOR FOREVER AND CANT BREAK INTO ANYTHING NEW.
But back to my main point, Yes Im 100% suicidal its as real and genuine as it gets and it occurred to me to try something else maybe it known publicly somehow and ask for help as Cant find a way out of this.
I NEED SOMETHING REMOTE THATS MORE THAN JUST SALES AND CUSTOMER SERVICE, I HAVE BEEN DOING THOSE JOBS TO FILL THE TIME AND THEY ARE ALL DEAD END.
Can someone please help me get a job and get my foot in the door new training so I can build a life again? I would be eternally grateful.
Once again there's nothing wrong with me, I have zero skeletons in my closet, never been in trouble with the law.
PLEASE DM ME FOR ANY OPPORTUNITIES, THEY WOULD LIKELY HAVE TO BE REMOTE, I WOULD HAVE TO LEARN NEW THINGS. BUT IM 100% SUICIDAL I CANT GO LIVING ON INDEED APPLYING FOR EVEN MORE YEARS AND GETTING NOTHING WITH NO JOB YOU CANT TRUELY LIVE OR GO ON ITS SOUL CRUSHING.
I CANNOT SPEND MY LIFE ON INDEED I NEED HELP AND NEW START AND A LUCKY BREAK.
IF I LACK EXPERIENCE I'LL LEARN IT. I JUST NEED HELP SO BADLY, SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME GETOUT OF THIS RUT.
I REALLY WANT TO LIVE, BUT AFTER 10 YEARS I DON'T HAVE ANY FIGHT LEFT IN ME.
THANK YOU- IF YOU CAN HELP ME, AND WISH TO TALK FURTHER DM ME. SERIOUS PEOPLE ONLY. NO TIME WASTERS.
I WILL KEEP BUMPING THIS THREAD AS I WANT TO BE SAVED
Im not being dramatic but please someone save my life. DM Me if you can help me get a job
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