I mean, it could be a troll, but some people genuinely are attracted to methods like this (whether for aesthetic reasons or self-destruction reasons or to make a gesture or other), and they may not consciously realise that (or be in denial about it), instead rationalising it like this, that it's the best way or only way. Or the other way around - they get fixated on stuff like a particular method because they view it as the best way and double down on it rather than addressing their fears about other methods. So it's good people responded; even if OP didn't need it, other people will see it.
I sincerely hope OP didn't choose to go through with it though and hope they know that if they didn't, they can come back and discuss or read as they please.
The inconsistencies and lack of concern about others, though...