Boyfriend left me for a girl

[geometryculdesac]

Title. I was fairly suicidal for the duration of our relationship. This past Victoria Day he just told me he didn't love me. As the fireworks were going off; it was a sickly kind of funny lol. He told me he still wanted to be friends. Tonight I overheard him talking about how he had met a girl at his volunteering and she loved his hair and kept calling him. The night he broke up with me he cried and told me he just wanted to be straight. I dont know what I did wrong. I can't even be that mad because I did the exact same thing to him two years ago. Maybe this is payback. I am currently planning my suicide via SN. Don't worry it's not a stupid whim breakup thing. I have been thinking about it since I was 15, and have survived 2 attempts lol. Idk where else to get my thoughts out .

 

[Hystearical]

What exact same thing did you do to him?

If he has issues with homosexuality that's not really your fault. Even if he simply lost interest in a romantic relationship and wanted to be with another guy that wouldn't necessarily be reflective of a problem with you even if it felt like it.

 

[geometryculdesac]

What exact same thing did you do to him?

If he has issues with homosexuality that's not really your fault. Even if he simply lost interest in a romantic relationship and wanted to be with another guy that wouldn't necessarily be reflective of a problem with you even if it felt like it.

I just learnt he was talking bad about me the whole night we were out so idk. I can't think of anything I've done immoral but I can assume it's about the fact I've been out of work and have been fucked up lately due to depression which is fair, I understand why he wouldn't want to be with someone like that but I don't know why he's being so mean about it. I thought I treated him with respect when we broke up but I suppose I may have been wrong.

 

[Hystearical]

I just learnt he was talking bad about me the whole night we were out so idk. I can't think of anything I've done immoral but I can assume it's about the fact I've been out of work and have been fucked up lately due to depression which is fair, I understand why he wouldn't want to be with someone like that but I don't know why he's being so mean about it. I thought I treated him with respect when we broke up but I suppose I may have been wrong.

Could be lashing out unfairly at you due to something else internal or external if the behavior is truly out of character. Sometimes people just allow themselves to be like that because they simply want to.

 

[Seneca65AD]

I just learnt he was talking bad about me the whole night we were out so idk. I can't think of anything I've done immoral but I can assume it's about the fact I've been out of work and have been fucked up lately due to depression which is fair, I understand why he wouldn't want to be with someone like that but I don't know why he's being so mean about it. I thought I treated him with respect when we broke up but I suppose I may have been wrong.

Why assume you did something wrong (or immoral)? If he did not have the decency to approach you with concerns and then is talking behind your back, I'm sorry, that's a "him" issue and not you. Out of work? Depressed? Okay, that may be a reason for leaving if he does not have the ability, desire or maturity to work through those issues with you. But as someone who spent decades settling for bad relationships because I valued my self-worth only through the eyes of others, you deserve better than that.