Lara Francis
Enlightened
- Jun 30, 2018
- 1,627
Hi.
I am writing this because I am faced with some confusing feelings that are unexpected and would appreciate some thoughts please.
Part of me doesn't give a shit but the other part is overthinking.
I saw a picture of my biological father in the media today after I have not seen him for 30 years - it' no loss believe me.!
However his daughter (I guess a half sibling,proberly one of many I do not know off.) Has done something awful and I would say is so sick .
I have had nothing to do with my birth family in those 30 years so I don't
Know why it is even being given any thought because I have much more important things to worry about.
I have to say that I am everything that they are not both as an individual and parent thankfully but I feel ashamed to think of him as my father - I always knew they were fucked up but maybe not this extreme.
He talks about her with effection which I never thought he was capable of or did not show me.!
I don't know why I am entertrining these thoughts which are causing me anxiety.
Please tell me to get a grip and stop me from pissing myself off with this stupidity
Thankyou.
I am writing this because I am faced with some confusing feelings that are unexpected and would appreciate some thoughts please.
Part of me doesn't give a shit but the other part is overthinking.
I saw a picture of my biological father in the media today after I have not seen him for 30 years - it' no loss believe me.!
However his daughter (I guess a half sibling,proberly one of many I do not know off.) Has done something awful and I would say is so sick .
I have had nothing to do with my birth family in those 30 years so I don't
Know why it is even being given any thought because I have much more important things to worry about.
I have to say that I am everything that they are not both as an individual and parent thankfully but I feel ashamed to think of him as my father - I always knew they were fucked up but maybe not this extreme.
He talks about her with effection which I never thought he was capable of or did not show me.!
I don't know why I am entertrining these thoughts which are causing me anxiety.
Please tell me to get a grip and stop me from pissing myself off with this stupidity
Thankyou.
