Kokonoe
Worthless, Broken Doll
- Apr 20, 2023
- 90
jumping is my backup method if fsh is unattainable to me. after getting caught mid fsh as my last attempt it's been really hard to pull off fsh with everything that's been taken away from me and all the surveillance.
my back up plan if i can't hang is that after i go to therapy tomorrow, i'll go straight to wherever my jumping spot is, and jump. the reason to do it after therapy like that is so i have an excuse to be out of the house without causing concern.
i know jumping is a bad method, but it's all i really have. i know it's risky, but my life is so bad now and i'm so desperate that i deem it worth the risk. i just want to maximize my chances of death. ideally i lose consciousness quickly so i don't suffer too much.
the bridge i initially thought of is liberty bridge. it seemed high enough when i was last there. but according to google it's only 44.4 feet above the water. i'm very concerned that that's not enough.
the tallest bridge i saw is the westend bridge, but it's only 66 feet above the water. i only haven't seen the bridge myself so idk how realistic it is to jump from.
which of these would be better? is 44.4 feet ok to jump from? or is it too risky?
please help.
my back up plan if i can't hang is that after i go to therapy tomorrow, i'll go straight to wherever my jumping spot is, and jump. the reason to do it after therapy like that is so i have an excuse to be out of the house without causing concern.
i know jumping is a bad method, but it's all i really have. i know it's risky, but my life is so bad now and i'm so desperate that i deem it worth the risk. i just want to maximize my chances of death. ideally i lose consciousness quickly so i don't suffer too much.
the bridge i initially thought of is liberty bridge. it seemed high enough when i was last there. but according to google it's only 44.4 feet above the water. i'm very concerned that that's not enough.
the tallest bridge i saw is the westend bridge, but it's only 66 feet above the water. i only haven't seen the bridge myself so idk how realistic it is to jump from.
which of these would be better? is 44.4 feet ok to jump from? or is it too risky?
please help.