Benzo issues need to end

[jessebessey]

I am stuck on benzos. I am on klonopin and temazepam and my wife does not believe that I will become disabled. I know I am so tired and don't want to be here but I have wife and two kids so I am thrown on doing it in case God is real but I don't want to suffer since my kids and wife hate me I feel overwhelmed and just want to ctb so badly

 

[n0exit]

I know the hell that is benzo dependency and disability all too well (particularly klonopin). But I'm not exactly sure if you're talking about that or if you're saying you have benzos to CTB and are conflicted?

Sorry, I'm not doing well myself right now and might have misunderstood your post.

 

[just dave]

Have you spoken to your health care provider about possible treatment options? Addictions are pure hell and I'm so sorry you're going through this

 

[UKscotty]

Took me a long time to come off them but I managed it.

Now days I don't even touch a nytol unless it's really bad, and that's not very often.

It does take many many months to break the addiction though. My case was over a year but I was badly addicted.

 

[Gonnerr]

Im on benzos right now , without that pill , i would have recover. K is hell right now.

 

[darkSea]

I was also really badly dependant on etizolam. It took over a year of gradual 10% reductions every week or two (I started at a very high daily dose). Not gonna lie, it was pretty distressing, but I eventually got off of it. Have you considered going on valium instead? Apparently that is smoother ride off of it, discussed in the Ashton manual. You may be disabled, or you may be able to reduce so gradually you're still functional.

 

[jessebessey]

I was also really badly dependant on etizolam. It took over a year of gradual 10% reductions every week or two (I started at a very high daily dose). Not gonna lie, it was pretty distressing, but I eventually got off of it. Have you considered going on valium instead? Apparently that is smoother ride off of it, discussed in the Ashton manual. You may be disabled, or you may be able to reduce so gradually you're still functional.

I have no financial support or money and if I did I would have to pay child support

 

[Otaku]

Me too.

I have the same problem. It's very much doing its best to destroy my life.
But i just can't get off them. I have been on klonopin/clonazepam for over 15 years now.

Every time i try to come of the pill, the stress or anxiety just totally overwhelms me. I have literally never tried anything so freaking horrible before. I am almost sure, that just by maintaining the dose, a person get withdrawals because our brains are getting used to them.

For me i see no way out of them, Benzos themself can make you extremtly depressed, plus almost any symptom you can think of, your CNS can generate.