Being trapped in a body that feels alien

[ikadasui]

I live my comfortable fleeting moments as if I were somebody else. Able to form bonds and be proud of my existence as a different entity and then it happens, I'm brought back to reality and any joy is replaced with disgust and anger. 24years of these thoughts and feelings that have only grown more debilitating as time goes on. I'm terrible at expressing myself and not very bright but it feels like I'm shackled in a cell that has no way out save for death

 

[niki wonoto]

Imagination is always better & much more interesting than this shitty reality.

 

[leftdreaming]

This one hit close to home. My dreams aren't even myself anymore, I'm not sure they ever were. Different name, different life. The only joy that comes from living is being able to dream. I feel you.

 

[ikadasui]

This one hit close to home. My dreams aren't even myself anymore, I'm not sure they ever were. Different name, different life. The only joy that comes from living is being able to dream. I feel you

yeah it feels like I'm just a mural of other people's persona's mashed into one. Like yarn but each strand is someone else, and if I'm in there too I wouldn't even know which one I'd be anyway so I can't find myself. It's very exhausting and ever growing it's a true misery

 

[FuneralCry]

Being trapped in a situation of endless suffering really is so horrible, I see existing as being an undeserved punishment.