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angel1

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Jun 18, 2023
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fitting in with normal, not-mentally-ill-non-suicidal-non-depressed people is hard.

Ever since I was a child, I was aware of this fact. To fit in, I've always mirrored those around me. Everything I do and say are copied from someone else. I'm not even sure if I have my own sense of person anymore.

life would have been both easier and more enjoyable as one of Queen Elizabeth's corgi's
 
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The anhedonic one

The anhedonic one

Dead inside
May 20, 2023
1,069
I'm bpd with a bit of Asperger's.
Human communication has always been something of an alien concept for me.
I am ok talking online, but have a lot of difficulty in real life.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,009
I've personally never been able to relate to other people at all, I just think that some people aren't meant for existing. And I agree that it's hard to be human.
 
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Iva

Iva

Student
Mar 4, 2023
106
I say often that I find humans to be the most interesting organism in the universe but I truly despise having been born as one.
 
MrDarkness

MrDarkness

Left sasu, to improve my life
Jun 18, 2023
1,066
I find it hard at times to speak my mind on who I am, like I wish people would understand my emotions. I want to express my self but my anxiety is too fucking awful. Shit sucks, I wish I could be immortal in a way, idk like a vampire or some shit, I could be alone, never getting sick or old, I'd be able to learn and do what ever I want, for as long as I want. Only a dream though sadly

I hope you find peace in life or death
 
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absolomonisgone

Specialist
Jan 23, 2023
322
Sure. Always thought so too. Being a human being is a punishment. Unless of course you are completely unaware and just follow the rules. But, even if you follow all the rules, one day, life will tell you --, in this game, nobody ever wins.
 
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deleted442

deleted442

Getting closer
Jun 7, 2023
91
I'm absolutely the same.
@Yllene13 everything you've written I could have written myself.
I have grown up on the surface but who I am inside is still the same hurting child that just wanted to be loved and accepted. That part never really goes away.

I've always thought of myself as a chameleon…just a lot less colourful!
If I could come back as an animal I think it would be one of those. When things get tough just blend into the background.
 

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