Being healthy is the worst as a suicidal person.

[LifeIsASadist]

I know this sounds asburd but I wished I had a bad immune system so I can die sooner and not have to worry about having to fight my desire to survive so my health can just do the job but my body is forced to be healthy and keep me alive probably until I am 100.

 

[ma0]

Similar thing here, I'm trying to make my life more of a living hell than it already is to completely dismantle my SI.

I'm sorry you feel this way, friend...

 

[sevennn]

i wished for a terminal illness b4

 

[LifeIsASadist]

Similar thing here, I'm trying to make my life more of a living hell than it already is to completely dismantle my SI.

I'm sorry you feel this way, friend...

I even sometimes wish I had cancer to kill me off bc I know I am destined for loneliness past 30+ which is only 9 years away from now.

 

[endofeverything]

i also wish for fatal disease sometimes, it would make things easy. but all i got are chronic disabilities and illnesses, and a weak (non lethal) immune system that has me falling ill every other week. i WISH i had a body that lived til 100 healthily, man....

by the way, 9 years is an extremely long time. lots can change. even one year is a long time

 

[softtodie]

I've also wished for a terminal illness before but which I feel bad about since I've lost people young to terminal illnesses or I wish there was a say to give my life to someone with a terminal illness

 

[lostintheloop]

yeah I both do and I don't .
If a disease could take me out , it'd be much easier.
But also having watched a relative die from a terminal disease, I wouldn't want to go that way. Their last moments seemed peaceful but not the months leading up to that, it seemed like hell. Maybe i'd deserve that though. They really didnt.