Venting Being disabled makes me want to die

[fleshcult]

I'm tired of taking pills everyday to vaguely help with pain. I'm never not in pain and I don't think it'll ever top... It's isolating. I don't think i'll be able to live out my dreams because of this, so what's the point. Do any of you feel like this

 

[alienoforces]

I feel this exact same way. I have a chronic pain disease and its awful. it impacts my daily life and i cannot stand living like this forever. it makes day to day life incredibly difficult. i cannot get out of bed most days because i can hardly walk due to pain and i cannot fucking handle it anymore. Why would i be here if every day is LITERAL AGONY!!!!! i completely understand

 

[Darkover]

i am always in a state of constant discomfort due to a brain injury so i can empathize with you should the time ever come that you need to die everyone should have that right to choose

 

[90starve]

i have a chronic bone disease in one side of my jaw. when i was 8-12 years old, i lived in constant agony - no amount of medication would relieve my pain, and the disease cannot be cured. eventually i turned to forms self harm (like cutting, banging my head against a wall, or ripping my hair out) because it seemed to be the only way to distract myself.

it is not so bad anymore - but recently, it has started to become more of an issue. i struggle eating because my jaw doesn't open wide enough, and scar tissue gets in the way of closing it properly. my quality of life is definitely not what it could be :/

 

[Andro_USYD]

Do you mind if I ask what your disability is? It's up to you if you don't wanna say but I'm just curious, it's over the internet so meh. What sorts of pills do you take? Are you on opioids for the pain management?

I'm also on a hell of a lot of pills everyday but I've come to enjoy taking them. It is a bit repetitive but for me it's for the better.

 

[ahimsa]

I struggle a lot with this. I became disabled after an accident in my teenager years. Walking and standing is painful almost all the time. I grief my former life, my healthy body, my energy. I feel like I lost my identity. Chronic pain is so fucking isolating. Most of the time this is the reason I feel like I can not bear this any longer. I am a shadow of my former self.

 

[Andro_USYD]

You should tell a psychiatrist, get something for pain management so you don't suffer. I'm sorry to hear that, You can still do non active things like chess online or watch videos and movies hopefully with physiotherapy you'll get better I hope. If you can.

 

[The anhedonic one]

I have osteoarthritis in several parts of my body now. The pain from inflammation drives me nuts. It affects mobility, and is always there these days.

 

[Heated]

I'm in a similar situation. Chronic pain has me here. I want to go ASAP but scared Of course

 

[FuneralCry]

It's so horrible how we exist in this world where there's all this endless suffering, existence undeniably is so hellish to me, I think it's such a terrible punishment being trapped inside the flesh prison that is the human body.

 

[searchingpeace]

I'm sorry for pain and everyone else who has chronic pain.
Yes I do relate. Its the main reason why I am here. I have constant stomach pain and my doctors cannot diagnose it. So I dont have actual pain medication to stop it.
I have to use weed and kratom (google it if you unfamiliar). This stuff barely keeps me afloat. The pain is so fucking debilitating that I cannot work anymore.

It's so horrible how we exist in this world where there's all this endless suffering, existence undeniably is so hellish to me, I think it's such a terrible punishment being trapped inside the flesh prison that is the human body.

Yeah I agree. "Flesh Prison" is the appropriate term for this kind of hell

 

[koko]

I am similar and always in pain and so many drugs to sleep and less pain. This is a big part of why I wan to ctb. It suck's knowing it will only get worse and not ever better in my situation.

 

[Jolene79]

Very severe pain and increasing loss of function due to very horrible conditions is the only reason I'm here. I have loads of issues but severe crippling neuropathy through my face, head and neck 24/7and getting worse is what has made me look at how to end it. I'm hanging on for dear life for my son who I do not want to leave at all. Family now have to look after him for me. I see him everyday but I have to take regular opioids. I couldn't cope without them but they don't remove the pain, it's so severe. The worst thing is that this particular issue I'm being gaslit over. I have loads of autoimmune diseases and they still gaslight me over this. That part makes me so hopeless. I cry hysterically every day pulling at my face and head and struggling to even sit upright. I am in shock that something so hideous could happen to me. I would rather have cancer and I mean that.

 

[fleshcult]

Do you mind if I ask what your disability is? It's up to you if you don't wanna say but I'm just curious, it's over the internet so meh. What sorts of pills do you take? Are you on opioids for the pain management?

I'm also on a hell of a lot of pills everyday but I've come to enjoy taking them. It is a bit repetitive but for me it's for the better.

hey, i have fibromyalgia... a lot of people dont consider it a disability, but it's made my life hell so far. i cant have a second of peace and i have the energy of a 15 year old dog with arthritis. I feel like I've tried everything and done it wrong so that's why I never feel better. I'm on pregabalin (amongst many others) right now, and I have like, five months worth of doses (my dr got me a good deal with a pharmacy so I got buy one get one free for a couple purchases) and they're pretty tempting to just down...

I'm sorry for pain and everyone else who has chronic pain.
Yes I do relate. Its the main reason why I am here. I have constant stomach pain and my doctors cannot diagnose it. So I dont have actual pain medication to stop it.
I have to use weed and kratom (google it if you unfamiliar). This stuff barely keeps me afloat. The pain is so fucking debilitating that I cannot work anymore.

Yeah I agree. "Flesh Prison" is the appropriate term for this kind of hell

It's the worst when even doctors don't know what to do. very disheartening

 

[Andro_USYD]

That's unfortunate but it can always get worse, at least they give U pregabalin. I'm also on a shit tonne of meds to function, probably more than U. When I tried pregabalin I just fell asleep and relaxed, does it work like that for you as well? What strength dosage are you on?