Being a terrible person

[furribcage]

Is anyone else just perpetually a terrible person? Sometimes I try to be nice and honest as much as possible and do alright for a while but I always fuck up again and it's nobodys fault but mine :( I wish I didnt exist I wish I never hurt anyone

 

[EvisceratedJester]

You aren't a terrible person, you are just human. Everybody fucks up. It's normal. You are still trying your best to be nice and honest and that's what matters.

 

[furribcage]

You aren't a terrible person, you are just human. Everybody fucks up. It's normal. You are still trying your best to be nice and honest and that's what matters.

That means a lot to me ty but I still keep fucking up and after a while I keep doing things I know are wrong again. Sorry I will keep trying though and I really appreciate your answer

 

[yumeganai]

tbh if youre this self aware youre probably not a bad person

 

[furribcage]

tbh if youre this self aware youre probably not a bad person

thank you I wish it was that way but I think in a weird way it makes me worse that Im self aware and still act like this

 

[MeSauce]

thank you I wish it was that way but I think in a weird way it makes me worse that Im self aware and still act like this

You are right. Knowing your doing something wrong and continuing to do it is objectively bad. But some things are so deeply ingrained in your behaviour that simply thinking, 'I will stop doing this thing' does not work. You have to strategize and plan against yourself almost as if you are a different person in order to make sure you do not do that thing. And if you fail to stop doing that thing, sit down and analyse what went wrong, why it happened, and how you are going to prevent it. Sounds like the cliches we have all be taught as a kid, but it does work.

But maybe this isn't a post for solutions, but for support. In any case, self improvement is good, by all definitions. I hope you feel better, :D

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

I'm a terrible person to the point where even if I were to suddenly stop being terrible (which already seems impossible) then I would still not deserve any form of redemption or forgiveness from anyone, especially not me.

 

[Just_Another_Person]

Being good or bad is up for debate, but are you sure you are horrible? That there are no lines you wouldn't cross?

 

[furribcage]

You are right. Knowing your doing something wrong and continuing to do it is objectively bad. But some things are so deeply ingrained in your behaviour that simply thinking, 'I will stop doing this thing' does not work. You have to strategize and plan against yourself almost as if you are a different person in order to make sure you do not do that thing. And if you fail to stop doing that thing, sit down and analyse what went wrong, why it happened, and how you are going to prevent it. Sounds like the cliches we have all be taught as a kid, but it does work.

But maybe this isn't a post for solutions, but for support. In any case, self improvement is good, by all definitions. I hope you feel better, :D

Thank you it means a lot to be told there's still a way forward. I'm trying now to change my behaviour through making sure I can identify things that will lead me to be bad before they happen and trying to distract myself or make me focus on the regret I will feel after.

Thanks I rly appreciate your insight and I feel a little better now that I have a plan ty!

Being good or bad is up for debate, but are you sure you are horrible? That there are no lines you wouldn't cross?

I think the lines I would cross are bad enough to be horrible probably