I am a freakin gutless chicken
no you're not!
It takes a tremendous amount of courage to ctb.
There are plenty of things to worry about:
- failing, where you screw yourself up, making life more miserable than it is now, and getting yourself in a position where you can't attempt to ctb again
- worry about what is on the other side, if there is an other side, will it be worse than being here
- worry about those who love you, and those you love, how it will hurt them
There are more, but those are the major three I have seen on this forum.
The general attitude on this forum is, if you can't go through with it, then you are not yet ready.
And that is OK!
Nobody here is keeping score.
There is no shame if you can't do it.
You are still welcome here.
Nobody here likes seeing anybody ctb, but we realize that if they absolutely need to, then we stand 100% behind them, because we feel they have a right to that choice.
Many (if not most) people stop participating in the forum without ctb.
I don't mean those who leave goodbye posts.
I have been here 1 yr 9 mo.
Right now, I don't feel the need to ctb, but I might in the future.
I stay on the forum because there are a lot of very nice people here.