be 100/100 sure you want to make an attempt and a few hours later, you no longer want to

[Defenestration]

be 100/100 sure you want to make an attempt and a few hours later, you no longer want to.

I hate this I am 100/100 sure that I want to kill myself, I have a real impulse, I don't care, I can see myself jumping without any problem, I am serene, determined...
The Si disappears

and after a few hours I no longer really want to and the sight drive returns. Since I can't make an attempt when I want it to take time to get to the location...and it doesn't just depend on me...

it is painful

 

[sos]

i guess that really depends on the emotional state you're in at that moment

sounds like you've hit a certain height of emotionality when you're certain that you wanna kill yourself

at some point you still wanna kill yourself but your emotions have faded slightly away

i'm in the same boat. i know that i wanna catch the bus, but i've still got my moments where everything non-suicide related kicks in and that i'm semi-actively busy with living life

 

[Fuko1]

I think something similar happens to most people. It is a very difficult decision to make, especially when you are trying to carry it out. I also always think that no one imagined long ago that they would do CTB.

 

[Defenestration]

Personally, I've been sure for 2 years that the best solution for me is CTB. life will become more and more difficult for me, a real way of the cross...I'm going to have more and more problems. I am trapped and there is no going back. now these are the ideal possibilities so as not to miss me for a suicide and the IS which means that I am still here

i guess that really depends on the emotional state you're in at that moment

sounds like you've hit a certain height of emotionality when you're certain that you wanna kill yourself

at some point you still wanna kill yourself but your emotions have faded slightly away

i'm in the same boat. i know that i wanna catch the bus, but i've still got my moments where everything non-suicide related kicks in and that i'm semi-actively busy with living life

Even if perhaps i'm content , i know that THE BEST AND only solution IS ctb

 

[Randy Savage]

I feel similarly very often. It's frustrating to feel completely ready and at peace and then suddenly feeling the urge to survive and hang on.
I hope you can find your peace.

 

[pulleditnearlyoff]

Yes I feel the same too, very very frustrating! But I just calmly wait 'till the time is right. My moment will come, I'm sure.