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[amomentspeace]

It's weird how fragile the feeling of hope is, or maybe it's just me, maybe I have a mood problem. I don't understand or appreciate how I easily it is to gain and lose hope in life. In one moment it feels like there's nothing to worry about, that I will find that special someone that I can love and be loved by, and in the next moment insecurity crawls up like a swarm of insects and I feel that pain on the heart, like someone is squeezing it with their hands. Coming back here feels inevitable and then feels easily avoidable. I had a dream last night. I don't think I have it hard or anything, in fact I think I have it quite easy which also perplexes me. Maybe I'm weak, but I know that some time after writing this it will all feel like a lie, even if it feels real now. I'm not the same person I was when I made my account, except in this way that I feel about things.

 

[Lamentice]

You're not weak, our reality is dystopian, even if you have it better than the next person, no one has it "good" except the rich.. and honestly who knows, they have their needs met but seem miserable all the same... You're not weak for being here