spiders.in.my.head
chronically stupid
- Dec 21, 2025
- 37
how much of a dramatic bitch does it make me, that i plan to ctb over being cut off by a friend. how pathetic and weak can i be.
literally every worst case scenario i have imagined since october has come true. i keep having to invent new ones to keep up with the speed of my life going to shit.
i dont even know what to think anymore. all i know is that im tired. im worn out. this was just the last straw that broke the camels back.
do i feel like im overreacting to frankly an insignificant issue in the grand scheme of things? absolutely. will i still attempt to kill myself because of it tonight? yes.
by the time anyone is reading this, i will likely already be gone.
(btw, said friend, if you see this, i still dont hate you. i probably should, after everything that has happened. but i dont. i understand your hands are tied, and frankly, i shouldve known better than to hope it wouldn't end like this. i dont blame you.
i cant even find it in me to be angry. i just feel worthless, abandoned and hurt.
if today was truly the last time we spoke, i wish you the best and i hope you can live a happy life.
ma soovin, et asjad oleks saanud teisiti olla. ma jään sind igatsema.)
literally every worst case scenario i have imagined since october has come true. i keep having to invent new ones to keep up with the speed of my life going to shit.
i dont even know what to think anymore. all i know is that im tired. im worn out. this was just the last straw that broke the camels back.
do i feel like im overreacting to frankly an insignificant issue in the grand scheme of things? absolutely. will i still attempt to kill myself because of it tonight? yes.
by the time anyone is reading this, i will likely already be gone.
(btw, said friend, if you see this, i still dont hate you. i probably should, after everything that has happened. but i dont. i understand your hands are tied, and frankly, i shouldve known better than to hope it wouldn't end like this. i dont blame you.
i cant even find it in me to be angry. i just feel worthless, abandoned and hurt.
if today was truly the last time we spoke, i wish you the best and i hope you can live a happy life.
ma soovin, et asjad oleks saanud teisiti olla. ma jään sind igatsema.)
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