attempting full suspension again soon

[Lungz]

failed fent od last yr, failed full suspension the year before. both were very traumatic, but im determined to make it work this time. i know it will hurt and i know i will regret it by the time i have nothing to reach for and no way to save myself, but i dont care. i need to get out of here

 

[ThoughtThinker]

I'm new here and not trying to judge, but why?

 

[coolintheshade]

OP....why not try other methods if the previous ones didn't work?

 

[ThoughtThinker]

do you have access to drugs/ substances that would calm you down

 

[artpopbestalbum]

I don't live in the US but if I had acess to fenta I would really go for fentanyl.... Hanging is just very traumatic and dificult because survivors instintics are gonna kick in to the fullest and not gonna be nice

 

[FuneralCry]

To me it sounds so horrific failing ctb, that is exactly what I fear and it certainly does make the hanging method sound so much easier than it actually is when you hear of all the people managing to succeed with it. I very much hate how hard it has to be die, but of course I understand just wanting to be free from this world. I hope that you find the freedom that you are searching for.

 

[Lungz]

I'm new here and not trying to judge, but why?

my anxiety and fear of abandonment have taken over my life to the fullest, i have no education or want to achieve anything. everything i do physically hurts, all of my interactions leave me unfulfilled. i dont want anything for myself.
the last 8 years of my life it has felt like ive been getting injected with poison every single day after every move that i make. theh only thing that helps is substances and i dont want to end up a washed up addict.
i havent felt truly safe or loved since my mom passed and i dont want to continue on seeking out the feeling of unconditional love because it doesnt exist

OP....why not try other methods if the previous ones didn't work?

i dont know how to access SN. i would try fent again but i dont want to wait for it in the mail or deal with plugs

 

[missingpeace]

I will be also attempting full suspension soon.. good luck to both of us

 

[BasqueClown]

I'll try this year too. I don't have fear of it. I only need to do it in a safe place without interrumptions...
I hope you can find peace.

 

[squareminus1]

failed fent od last yr, failed full suspension the year before. both were very traumatic, but im determined to make it work this time. i know it will hurt and i know i will regret it by the time i have nothing to reach for and no way to save myself, but i dont care. i need to get out of here

Hey i am not sure if you still check here but how did you fail full suspension, i was thibking of teying this soon and i'd like to know so I can try avoid this

 

[Worndown]

Most of these people have been offline for a while. They might have succeeded.

 

[アホペンギン]

Most of these people have been offline for a while. They might have succeeded.

Thats highly likely but more information would be needed to be sure, death is a serious matter and its a bad idea to make a conjecture.