LilGhost
Shark
- Apr 8, 2026
- 100
Soooo..... In few previous posts Ive been not sure if i should make a last attempt to live, should I just bridge, rope and shit... And I didnt have enough fight in me to do shit. Today, few energy drinks in, finally decent amount of sleep hours (idk how long, I just finally dont feel like a fish). I am ready..... To try to act. I am still hesitant and I am lowkey scared. I need to text my friend asking if their offer still intact (I figured how to do it without accidentally forcing them, them feeling guilty and shit), tho thats still scary, I dont want to accidentally hurt him and shit....
So... I feel more scared then I am with ctb lol..... So scared I might back up from it. So... any words are greatly appreciated. I might just start sh with how freaking out I am rn, but i do far more painful shit rn (updating resume and applying for jobs... lol)
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Very scared to live.... slowly learning to grow, hands shaking to post - LilGhost
So... I feel more scared then I am with ctb lol..... So scared I might back up from it. So... any words are greatly appreciated. I might just start sh with how freaking out I am rn, but i do far more painful shit rn (updating resume and applying for jobs... lol)
Thats like.... A tiny window of hope i get. And thats thanks for Sasu community.... Really. Reading others stories... Getting comments.... It is to early to say anything. But that like first time of mine hesitating after months.... Even if ill back out, even if i fail... I am grateful that you taught me new ways to look at this worldlets act.... Just this once....
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Very scared to live.... slowly learning to grow, hands shaking to post - LilGhost
