Method At the hotel ready to CTB by Nerium oleander - have you tried it?

[mm210898]

Hey.
After doing a lot of research for the past months, today I booked a night at an hotel and I'm already in my room. I have made the tea from about 40 nerium oleander leaves and I've been trying to get the courage to drink it mixed with an orange juice. I have about 1,5l of tea and 2l of juice. I also have bought an antiemetic that doesn't need prescription (Dimenhydrinate), I understand that this might be a little bit weak but I got it anyway and now I was planning on buying buscopan for the abdominal pain. I also have trazodone (will help me sleep) and mexazolam (benzodiazepine derivative, helps with anxiety)

I'm so desperate and have absolutely no hope for the future but SI is still kicking.

Somebody has any experience with nerium oleander?

I don't know if I will get too scared when the effects start to kick in and then ask for help... I think I would never forgive myself for being such a coward

P.s - writing from portugal, excuse my poor english

 

[darksouls]

I wish you the best, I hope you find relief from suffering

 

[mm210898]

Update: i am already drinking it: 1l of juice + 500ml of tea

I will be updating as much as I can in order to help future friends who might be curious about this too

 

[nool]

Hope you find your peace

 

[hellocana]

Never heard this as a method.. is it likely to ctb? And how do you get a hold of it?

 

[mm210898]

Never heard this as a method.. is it likely to ctb? And how do you get a hold of it?

See case report example here https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC7889672/

This plant is very common here in Portugal, you can see it everywhere. I just cut it in the streets when no one was watching.

I ended the full drink at ~11:40 pm and i am now going to take two trazodone pills (300mg) to help me sleep. The effects should start at 3 am

 

[Tord]

Don't feel bad to seek help if you want to abort the plan. I have no knowledge on this method and cannot confirm or deny if anything will happen so that's why I'm saying this.

May you find peace either way you end up going.