Are your loved ones aware of your SaSu account?

[water bunny]

I feel somewhat guilty keeping this account a secret from the people who care alot about me. I'm curious to know if any of you have told a close friend / partner about your account and their reactions (i'm not planning to reveal anytime soon though, maybe i'll add it in my note if i ctb)

 

[noname223]

I think I am clearly the minority. I told it to my parents and to my sister. 3 close friends know it and I told to 2-3 therapists. Why no excact number on the therapists? Well I only said it in a side note to one of them. To my psychiatrist and my former psychologist I told them I am frequent poster in a suicide forum. I told my mom I am scared about getting into legal trouble one day. She asked me how many posts I have 50? 70? I replied to her over 3500. She was shocked by that. I elobarated probably about every single one of them how they reacted to it it when I dropped the bomb.

This forum is barely a topic in the German news. I think the outlets think (rightfully) think that the Streisand effect would happen. For most of them they never heard of sanctioned suicide.

 

[EvisceratedJester]

Nope. If any of them found out then they would probably force me to be hospitalized or something. My mom actually threatened to put me back in this psych program once when she thought I was suicidal again (which is suprising since she didn't like me being hospitalized back when I was in high school). Thankfully those feelings quickly passed and she doesn't suspect anything anymore.

 

[outrider567]

Of course not, why would you tell anyone at all that you're on this site??

 

[stuckinfiction]

@stuckinfiction my partner would react the exact same way as yours and that's the reason im wondering if i should tell or not

Do you regret telling your partner about your account?

I am defs in the minority here but I don't regret it. He could clearly see me struggling and knew something was going on in the background. But because he had similar struggles with mental health before, I think he understands? I just like to be honest with him because I would want him to do the same for me.

If you think your partner will understand and empathise with your, I think it's ok to tell them. If they were to be neurotypical and lack the understanding of what you're going through, I think it's better off not telling them.

 

[Iris Blue]

I am still fairly new but I highly doubt I would ever consider telling anyone. Don't need them worrying or me ending up in a psych ward before I can ctb. I wish I could talk to my best friend about finding a website that I finally can be open with others about my thoughts and feelings and them too and hope she could be happy for me but I know she'd just panic and contact my dad :/ but it doesn't matter anyways because I have everyone on here instead.

 

[hermestrimegistus]

Never

 

[phantomime]

they don't really know this forum exists but during a bad crisis I told my partner and my closest friend about browsing and chatting on a forum with other suicidal people. they kind of just brushed it off. lol...

 

[du2497]

No one knows the accounts that I have when I discuss these things, except the staff and other users on this site and others. (Mostly Reddit on throwaways, outside of here). I have one family member I open up to on the really difficult days, but they don't know about any accounts.

 

[Some place nice]

I don't try to hide it. But they also dont care about me nor know what sasu is. I hinted at it to my sister and she didnt connect the dots.

 

[undecided]

I feel somewhat guilty keeping this account a secret from the people who care alot about me. I'm curious to know if any of you have told a close friend / partner about your account and their reactions (i'm not planning to reveal anytime soon though, maybe i'll add it in my note if i ctb)

We all have secrets. Why do you feel guilty for being here? You're not harming anyone, you're not doing anything illegal. It's your safe space where you can talk to like minded people who understand your struggles.
And adding a note, after you ctb... why? What difference will it make, apart from cause more controversy for this site, which so many already want to get SASU shut down ?!

 

[Duality]

No, but I believe one person who I know closely suspects that I have an account. I'm 100% certain that they don't know my account name, otherwise I'd probably be in the mental ward. Anyway they'll never know who I am. It's draining trying to pretend I'm all right to them though, wish they'd understand more about me but it's obvious they will never.

 

[CrystallicEyes]

I could never tell them, they would probably all start freaking out and think that I'm crazy.

 

[NeedAnEscape]

Nobody, and I intend to keep it that way.

 

[RichardFirst]

I have to admit a bit of disappointment at the replies here. It seems many people talk about this site as if it's a social media account. With respect to these people, please stop this.

This site, whilst nothing illegal, is still controversial. How do you think the authorities get wind of things like SN sources? How do you think people end up on psych wards? The answer is that normies find out about sites like this and make noise.

This is a great resource for people like us, but we have to protect it. Please, please do not discuss this site with people.

 

[HollowDrop]

I do not want to bring unneeded attention to this site, no. I would hate it if my eventual suicide was connected to this website for normies to blindly blame all of you for what I did when the reality is far from that.

 

[tiger b]

I have to admit a bit of disappointment at the replies here. It seems many people talk about this site as if it's a social media account. With respect to these people, please stop this.

This site, whilst nothing illegal, is still controversial. How do you think the authorities get wind of things like SN sources? How do you think people end up on psych wards? The answer is that normies find out about sites like this and make noise.

This is a great resource for people like us, but we have to protect it. Please, please do not discuss this site with people.

I get what you're saying, and personally I wouldn't discuss it.

But I think it's a question of when it's censored (to some degree) not if, regardless of what most people do.

 

[cardboard_house]

I haven't told my parents about my account here, but they've definitely seen me using it. If they ask, I plan to tell them that it's a recovery forum and hope they don't research it at all.

 

[noname223]

I have to admit a bit of disappointment at the replies here. It seems many people talk about this site as if it's a social media account. With respect to these people, please stop this.

This site, whilst nothing illegal, is still controversial. How do you think the authorities get wind of things like SN sources? How do you think people end up on psych wards? The answer is that normies find out about sites like this and make noise.

This is a great resource for people like us, but we have to protect it. Please, please do not discuss this site with people.

In my case that fear is irrelevant. My parents don't speak English and I have not mentioned the name. My sister also does not know the name. There are a few German suicide forums. They all are too dumb to connect any dots anyway.

My therapists also had close to zero knowledge about suicide forums. I am very certain they don't know the name of this website. I did not mention the name. In Germany this forum is not debated anywhere.

Not me mentioning this forum to my family members with two brain cells who forget it within 2 days brings the attention.
It is the media outlets the traditional ones and the ones on youtube.

Moreover I emphasized towards all of them how much this forum helps me to cope with my suicidality. The media is attacking this website not me.

The tantacrul video was recommended to one of my closest friends recently. With the acronym SS he knew it was this forum. But I have already talked with them about this controversy. Well I am chronically suicidal since a decade nothing stops it and this forum helps me to postpone my suicide. My friends are aware how much I am in need for a place like this. They would never threaten me to leave it.

 

[deadbody]

No, and I hope they never find out. It's none of their business.

 

[princexhhn]

one of my friend knows! she doesnt really mind though, lurks sometimes actually and sees me post ^-^ finds it nice ive got community. she told me to say she loves the layout LOL.

 

[Liru2002]

I think it would scare them

 

[Orange Cat]

Yes a couple of people know that I come on here. One of them has been passively suicidal in the past. She doesn't know the name of the site. She thinks it is a mental health forum that offers support for people who are trying to recover from depression. She has joined such forums in the past.

The other person knows that I had a previous account on here. She said she was interested in learning about information about different methods for future use in case she needs it when she gets older.

 

[asian.neet]

Honestly it's a bad idea to tell anyone about SaSu. I don't tell anyone about my sasu acct

 

[RichardFirst]

I get what you're saying, and personally I wouldn't discuss it.

But I think it's a question of when it's censored (to some degree) not if, regardless of what most people do.

Probably, yes. Then it's over to the dark-web we go.

 

[mob]

Absolutely not. Don't think I'll ever tell anyone, don't want to end up in the psych ward.

This is funny. I accidentally ended up telling my friend about the fact that I'm on a suicide forum in my drunken state. Praying she forgot about it

 

[MelancholyDolly]

Nope, they'd put me in the ward over this for sure.

 

[umopep!sdn128]

Of course not. Telling this to people who are reprehensible about suicide (which is the majority in this society) would be the stupidest idea. And of course, none of your loved ones wants to lose you.

 

[viljalauss]

even with those i am most open with, i don't think telling them i'm on this site would help, even if they didn't do anything (report me or contact someone idk) they would be way more concerned than otherwise and considering how much i have been fluctuating between being set on ctb and stuck in limbo it would be more concern that was actually warranted

 

[TraumaEscapee:)]

No but I'm sure my birth family whom I am completely estranged from would love me deceased. After all they beat me, molested me, emotionally abused me, neglected me. Tossed me of into the foster system, one has a criminal record for harassing me, I was stalked by this same person who molested me as a child and got away with it like they all did (3 of them did that to me). The list really is endless with them they gave me bpd and ptsd and an attachment disorder. So my birth family would only be interested in having my assets and garnering sympathy from people. The people who aren't my birth family would likely be devastated so no one knows :)

I feel somewhat guilty keeping this account a secret from the people who care alot about me. I'm curious to know if any of you have told a close friend / partner about your account and their reactions (i'm not planning to reveal anytime soon though, maybe i'll add it in my note if i ctb)

Why would you add it in your ctb note? Do you want people to blame the users on this site? I personally offer no tips because I don't want to I just watch for my own tips on how to ctb. With all the news leaving it in a ctb note would kinda make the site suffer more public damage.

 

[asian.neet]

Why would you add it in your ctb note? Do you want people to blame the users on this site? I personally offer no tips because I don't want to I just watch for my own tips on how to ctb. With all the news leaving it in a ctb note would kinda make the site suffer more public damage.

OP, exactly. id recommend against mentioning this site.