Are you single?

[tsumihoroboshi]

i've been in many unfulfilling relationships. i don't know if it's because i'm possibly aro, and i know me being asexual is a deal breaker and was for my last relationship. i have trouble with romantic love in general. i just get "obsessed" with people and these "obsessions" cause me to want someone, and then i get them, and then i don't want them anymore. i don't know what's wrong with me.

i've been single for over a year and i am a little lonely because i miss having someone that's obligated to be there for you, but that's just selfish thinking honestly. i can't romantically love people anyway. i've only ever dated assholes anyway save for the one person i had when i was 15. kind of sad to think about in retrospect. many relationships since then and they've all been shit save for that one when i was a teenager. ah.

to answer though, no. it doesn't add to me being depressed or suicidal. all my exes tried to fix me and failed to do so. i was suicidal even with partners.

 

[hadenough58]

Can I ask what happened?

In brief a cheating wife who used the British legal aid system to take my children, house and just about every penny I had.
Add in the government's totally unfair child support agency and I was crushed.

 

[dweams]

If anything, I'd probably be in an abusive relationship that would push me further toward suicide.

Here's a quote from a game I've played that seems fitting here: "You're the kinda [person] who'd choke me goodnight, the kinda [person] who'd walk in on me cutting and take the razor blade and do it for me."

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I'm serious lol. I've never had a relationship before but I'm open to trying one…if you are haha. I always thought the UK seemed much more sophisticated than the US. It seems to be more refined and have more class.

This is surprising as hell. I thought that you only wanted to be with your irl crush. Also, I would agree to your offer and try it out to see how it would work but the reason why I said that I may not be single anymore is because I have somebody else who I've been with longer online. Somebody who is not on sasu and I want to do it with them instead. If I didn't have them, I would do it with you though I think that it's a good idea if we don't get into a relationship as it'd be boring quickly. I don't have the interests that you do (such as kpop) and I probably won't be interested in some of the topics you are passionate about. I'm not hot either lol. There definitely are people out there better for you than I am

Also, I don't think that the UK has more class. I remember seeing @Throwawayacc3 mention in a previous thread somewhere about how saying "you live in a basement" to an american is an insult whereas saying that to somebody in the UK is a compliment as it means they can afford something which most people cannot. This is accurate tbh. If anything, the UK probably has less class due to how unaffordable things are getting here. In terms of job opportunities, I'd rather choose america than the UK as the latter is extremely abysmal

 

[Untimely]

This is surprising as hell. I thought that you only wanted to be with your irl crush. Also, I would agree to your offer and try it out to see how it would work but the reason why I said that I may not be single anymore is because I have somebody else who I've been with longer online. Somebody who is not on sasu and I want to do it with them instead. If I didn't have them, I would do it with you though I think that it's a good idea if we don't get into a relationship as it'd be boring quickly. I don't have the interests that you do (such as kpop) and I probably won't be interested in some of the topics you are passionate about. I'm not hot either lol. There definitely are people out there better for you than I am

Also, I don't think that the UK has more class. I remember seeing @Throwawayacc3 mention in a previous thread somewhere about how saying "you live in a basement" to an american is an insult whereas saying that to somebody in the UK is a compliment as it means they can afford something which most people cannot. This is accurate tbh. If anything, the UK probably has less class due to how unaffordable things are getting here. In terms of job opportunities, I'd rather choose america than the UK as the latter is extremely abysmal

that's interesting. that last paragraph is very informative, thanks

 

[tbroken]

I don't trust anyone in general, especially women, especially in these times. I mean, I'm not that special, but I'm really smart and somehow i know that being single is the smartest choice. In my region ppl still marry, but it is just a women trap, most of the times.

 

[Throwawayacc3]

This is surprising as hell. I thought that you only wanted to be with your irl crush. Also, I would agree to your offer and try it out to see how it would work but the reason why I said that I may not be single anymore is because I have somebody else who I've been with longer online. Somebody who is not on sasu and I want to do it with them instead. If I didn't have them, I would do it with you though I think that it's a good idea if we don't get into a relationship as it'd be boring quickly. I don't have the interests that you do (such as kpop) and I probably won't be interested in some of the topics you are passionate about. I'm not hot either lol. There definitely are people out there better for you than I am

Also, I don't think that the UK has more class. I remember seeing @Throwawayacc3 mention in a previous thread somewhere about how saying "you live in a basement" to an american is an insult whereas saying that to somebody in the UK is a compliment as it means they can afford something which most people cannot. This is accurate tbh. If anything, the UK probably has less class due to how unaffordable things are getting here. In terms of job opportunities, I'd rather choose america than the UK as the latter is extremely abysmal

Job opportunities = family connections or someone you know or like you is the manager/owner of a business.

You think most people look at a CV and say they are "qualified" lol. It's like those adverts that say entry level position. History: must have 3 years experience. Lmao. It's make 0 sense and I think that's the point. Let it all crumble. Fucking nonsense.

 

[BlendedHeart]

I've only had very short term relationships.

I know I'll only get out of this loneliness if I somehow sort out myself and become an interesting and stable person, but I don't see a chance of that happening, lol.

 

[bookie]

I'm single but it doesn't affect my suicidalness

 

[ForgottenAgain]

Does it effect your suicidalness

It has affected a lot yes. When I was single I would feel a lot more suicidal. I'm very needy of love, being alone kills me, I need to have my person. I'm glad I have him now.

 

[casandranova29]

I have been in relationships in the past. I am single right now, but this is not the reason why i want to CTB. I have never been sexually involved tho, I am still a virgin. I don't have any such wish like, "trying out sex at least once before CTB". I am absolutely fine with going off as a virgin...

 

[FuneralCry]

Yes as I have no interest in something so shallow and repulsive. In my case I only wish to permanently cease existing, I have no interest in suffering in this evil world, human existence is such an abomination to me, more than anything I wish I never existed at all.

 

[trashprincess]

Yup! I can't handle getting close to people in normal healthy ways, and I don't know how to find anyone to use me

I dated someone a decade ago for about a year and it was just a complete mistake. Just someone I put up with because I felt like I had to

 

[astonishedturnip]

Yes, I just can't find anyone I click with. Haven't given up hope yet tho

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

I've been single for my entire thirty year life and it's the main reason I feel like I have to die because I'm getting torn apart by my feelings for crushes I've had and even if I did find someone I'm such an awful person I don't deserve anyone and I'd just ruin their life anyway.

 

[sserafim]

I've been single for my entire thirty year life and it's the main reason I feel like I have to die because I'm getting torn apart by my feelings for crushes I've had and even if I did find someone I'm such an awful person I don't deserve anyone and I'd just ruin their life anyway.

I'll be your wife if you provide for me for the rest of my life jk

 

[ilvgore]

I am not single no. But its just an online thing sadly. I wish he was here with me. I would feel less lonely. I have nobody in real life. No friends no support. I am so afraid of asking for help. I am just to dependent on other people. I am afraid of doing things on my own and then making mistakes. Responsibility is soo scary. >_<

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

I'll be your wife if you provide for me for the rest of my life jk

The jk in your sentence:

 

[TheGoodGuy]

Of course who would want me

 

[sserafim]

I am afraid of doing things on my own and then making mistakes. Responsibility is soo scary.

Same. That's why I want to be a trophy wife lol

 

[ilvgore]

Same. That's why I want to be a trophy wife lol

Sounds like a good idea. But being attractive is so important i think. I feel like when you are pretty mistakes, will be easily overlooked or forgiven. But i am ugly so well..Sorry to bother, but do you maybe know how to ask questions in this forum?

 

[LunarLight]

No, I'm not single. I would be even more suicidal if I was.

 

[LXXCH]

it isn't my main reason for wanting to ctb, but the loneliness certainly makes me want to do it more

same here, it would help postpone it but it wouldn't prevent me from going through with it

 

[sserafim]

Sounds like a good idea. But being attractive is so important i think. I feel like when you are pretty mistakes, will be easily overlooked or forgiven. But i am ugly so well..Sorry to bother, but do you maybe know how to ask questions in this forum?

Yeah I think so. It's probably due to the halo effect and pretty privilege right? I think I'm above average, people say that I'm pretty but I don't think I'm beautiful or anything. Go to the main page then to where it says "post thread"

 

[Morte]

I think Im aro ace , so it doesn't affect me at all. Lack of money and talent are one of the main reasons

 

[sserafim]

I think Im aro ace , so it doesn't affect me at all. Lack of money and talent are one of the main reasons

I'm thinking of getting into a relationship just for the money lol. I want someone to provide and take care of me for the rest of my life. Maybe it could be a mutual thing with another aroace person? Lack of money (and eventually having to support myself and be independent) is my main reason

 

[Redleaf1992]

Been single for the whole 32years of my life. Lots of reasons for it, from social awareness, fear of intimacy, confidence and gender and sexual identity confusion.

It's a big part of my push to CBT, I know I will live and die alone, it all seems empty and pointless without a partner (maybe children) to grow old with.

 

[letsgetittogo]

same here, it would help postpone it but it wouldn't prevent me from going through with it

I feel the same way. I often romanticize spending time with someone who understands that I'm suicidal, or at least can relate to the headspace that I'm in these days. I definitely yearn for that emotional intimacy as well as the physical.
Ideally I'd meet someone, spend some time with them, enjoy the joy of human connection, and then ctb after a while

 

[Morte]

I'm thinking of getting in a relationship just for the money lol. I want someone to take care of me for the rest of my life. Maybe it could be a mutual thing with another aroace person? Lack of money is my main reason

This can be hellish, because no one will take care of you without somethin in return. Your partner may completely rule your life and abuse you emotionally and physically.
My dad is a well-paid man and my mother married him albeit she have no money. He is a massive asshole to us simply because he can and there is nothing we can do because we depend on him financially. I just wanted to have my own money to eliminate him from my life and live without anyone regulating me and causing me stress.

 

[Malaria]

No, I'm not single. I've been in my current relationship for about nine years.