Are you ready to die?

[YukiFox]

I'm ready to die as I accept my own death. Even I don't schedule my own suicide, I'm not fearful about doing so. I want to do some couple things first, but if my life turns unbearable, I just take my own life.

 

[Deleted member 1768]

Why? Why not?

If you're ready, what are you waiting for?


If not, what is needed for you to be ready?

I need to find an online pharmacy that will sell/ send zolpidem to Canada. Any suggestions? Thank you.

 

[Kikoo Loool]

I want to die so much, but feel like not ready yet... Maybe I just need a partner or some technical support.

 

[DrownedOctopus]

I was ready to die at 16 and almost succeeded in ending my life. The same years later at 23, only a couple months before my birthday.
I'm ready to die, I just haven't found the perfect method to try again. I'm researching and going back and forth between a few, hopefully I'll be able to decide soon. I never wanted to make it past 16, let alone 24.

 

[Jacquelyn]

Why? Why not?

If you're ready, what are you waiting for?


If not, what is needed for you to be ready?

I'm not ready. I'll be ready after my vacation and seeing my friends for the last time.

I don't want to die. But I have to. I want to see my girlfriend become my wife and I want to live in a big house growing cannabis for some legal state. I want to have a successful business and make music. I want people to know my name and be looked up to. I want to love and be loved.
But I have to die.
It sucks, but that's just what has to happen in my case.

 

[Crimsonskye]

I don't want to but I can't escape it

 

[xb243]

I'm not suicidal but I no longer have the desire to live. I wake up each day with nothing to look forward to. I no longer have hobbies or interests or pleasures. I'm just existing. I blame the meds. They destroyed me.

 

[Roadkill]

yes, I am very ready to die.. as soon as I buy a shotgun, I am using it..the only thing stopping me is fear of failure

 

[Memento Mori]

I am. over and over again. like today, I feel the urge to stop wasting my time here, don't want to suffer emotionally anymore...dunno what that thing with hope is, it's there sometimes but it's not really there, it's just your brain pushing around the endorphines you saved for weeks...in my case they are barely enough to make me look like a bipolar freak once a week. I am ready for a long time but I often forgot that like I forgot much other things. I need more reminders from certain persons that all options that are left lead to ctb, I'm not strong enough. no anime-style-power-of-friendship-and-love-speech here, sorry

 

[Gray Wounds]

I'm always ready to die. But right now, I am taking a bit of a break from doing it again. The last time I did it, I've discovered that I still have that inch of fear creeping in my veins. And I realized why. It's because there are things that I'm still not done fixing yet. 3 things actually. 2 of 'em are already okay. 1 more to go before I catch the bloody bus.

 

[Gray Wounds]

And the other reason is because most of the time, I am not the one in control.

 

[TheCrow]

Will stay around until my dog passes.

Aww, your dog! Isn't leaving them the hardest part to even try thinking about?! Ugh, my heart.

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

Not that I had lots of fun as a kid/teen, but, especially in a culture that openly accepts and encourages ageism, getting older without family or friends or social support is (for me) brutal. You're just a hulking mass that's supposed to produce money for the state and labor for corporations. Your neighbors don't see you, don't want to see you, and will run you over to get where they're going more conveniently. And we're all competing for... a better house, better car, better job, better social standing... I feel like garbage in a compost heap waiting slowly to be turned into something else that might benefit others.

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

I know I want to, but I have no idea how to prepare or where to get the best information on partial suspension. I know there's info on here, but I almost feel overwhelmed by the huge number of threads and posts. I just want one single page with info on it that I can follow, because I'm an uncoordinated piece of shit who doesn't even know how to tie knots.

Hear, hear.

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

As ready as I'll ever be. I've been ready for so long it's stale at this point.

Love it.

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

I have always known that I would take myself out of this world, I have no place in this world, and it seems that whatever I do it is a futile effort. I have been ready for a long time.... there is nothing holding me back. You could give me a million dollars and I would refuse your offer and still do it, I have seen too much to be naive. This world is full of suffering, some people mask it by the pursuit of pointless distractions, others by consuming, and the rest by enjoying themselves off the suffering on others. This world is sick, and it is mostly filled with sick people.... I reject not only this world and everything in it, but life itself. Life is not worth the trouble, and for sure it is not a gift.... it is a curse. When the timer I have set goes off then I will end it, by then I will have my materials for my method and finally put an end to this pointless existence. I will go back to being ____________

You took the words out of my mouth.

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

Suicide is a funny thing. It's almost like you need to feel inspired to do it in order to do it successfully, kinda like art lol.

Perfect. Just perfect.

 

[Kyrok]

Aww, your dog! Isn't leaving them the hardest part to even try thinking about?! Ugh, my heart.

My dog is 13yrs old, 2 year cancer survivor. Thinking about her passing is terribly distressing... but I'm committed to staying here until then.

 

[TheCrow]

My dog is 13yrs old, 2 year cancer survivor. Thinking about her passing is terribly distressing... but I'm committed to staying here until then.

Aww, bless her heart. Yeah, without our dogs, what's the point? Fuck that.

 

[Quinlor]

Yes I ready... My personal live it's over for me, I wan't talk to anybody anymore. The problem is I never realise how difficult is kill your self, I tried hanging, poison, now I probably will try hanging again... And finnaly as my last option jumping. What I most wanted is have a gun ! Should be easier.

 

[interim]

Yep, I'm ready. I actually tried it in my twenties. However it was not my time, I didn't have enough courage and experience in life. Actually what I experienced even then was enough for me to understand I don't belong here. However, I didn't have the life wisdom to understand exactly why. I think this was big part for me, to rationalize for myself also why I hate life so much, why I can never really live here.

What I find difficult now is just being motivated enough to research and experiment with methods. I can get very easy into a total apathy, like others said, you must have some inspiration. I watch now some anime drama (the latest one was Rumbling Hearts, pretty good if you are into this)... I don't know why anime is so addictive. It's probably the dehumanization. I mean, in it's positive sense, I'm sick of people. But also the writing is much better and meaningful then the western cinema...

 

[Kazilium]

Yes and... No.

Yes: because this emotional suffering is unbearable and it makes me go psychotic in the middle of the day at work.
No: because all this crap worsened after me wanting to finally stay alive and planning stuff. And it kinda makes me... Regret my choice.

 

[seekingoblivion]

I'm ready to die but to kill myself not so much. I need a method and delivery plan. Right now I just know I gotta do it. I'm properly sick of life. I'm trying to formulate a plan that will result in a quick and painless death with a decently delayed discovery time and minimal collateral psychological damage but I'm short on resources.

 

[ThisIsTheEnd]

I'm ready, I just want to make sure that neither I nor anybody else can fuck it up and have me end up braindead.

 

[pushinguppoppies]

Yeah. I accepted it years ago. I've wanted TO CTB since 7h grade, but I'm waiting for the right time.

There's one thing coming up that could make things better, but I don't know if I can't wait 3 months. I'm ready to go. I'm fucking done lol

 

[littlepillbox]

I am. I just am waiting for my next paycheck so I can afford a hotel room.

why do it in a hotel room? i see this here a lot

 

[littlepillbox]

I can get very easy into a total apathy, like others said, you must have some inspiration. I watch now some anime drama (the latest one was Rumbling Hearts, pretty good if you are into this)... I don't know why anime is so addictive. It's probably the dehumanization. I mean, in it's positive sense, I'm sick of people. But also the writing is much better and meaningful then the western cinema...

I've basically checked out and given up, and I went from being somewhat successful with my own place to a NEET in my family home's basement in the past two months. Anime/manga (especially shoujo) are my only respite because it's so much more thoughtful than equivalent Western genre. I find myself feeling more for and through the characters than I do for my IRL friends.

Teenaged me would be horrified I've failed my goal of not turning into the 4chan stereotype but, oh well.