un.exist
peace welcomes with a grip of ice
- Dec 25, 2025
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I often forget that everyone in this forum is/was suicidal. Almost everyone in this forum wants to die. I don't know why it's settling on me now.
To the point now, are you desensitised to suicide? I think I am. Sometimes when I reply to a thread asking about a method, it feels normal, almost mechanic in the moment, like 'you silly goose ofc you can't cut your carotids, try partial suspension hanging instead
'. It's only after I post it I'm like wtf did i just type.
Its really easy to forget that is an actual person with an actual life who actually wants to die which is actually sad since you know, you're the only one allowed to kill yourself and everyone else is too valuable. I don't know if I make sense.
I know I've really gone off the deep end when goodbye posts just become another post to scroll by. Bruh...an actual person dying....and I just scroll past it or briefly look at it like it's the most normal thing ever. I remember my first time on the forum seeing a goodbye post, I was shocked to my core like what?? y'all are also planning to die?? Lol what did I expect. Then you see so many 'hope you find peace' posts and not really criticising here but its more like 'well we're not sure wtf will happen after you die but hope you find peace' and yeah the latter wouldn't sound too nice to the person. Anyway, that's why I don't like to think of what happens after death or engage with that type of disscussions cuz at the end of the day its all just assumptions........or I'm just a wuss.
This was something that never crossed my mind a few years ago; watching suicide videos. I have watched a lot, a concerning amount, all in the name of research. I watch them and think oh so that's how its done, that's what happens after, you loose consciousness that fast?, this guy did it nicely. I literally forget I am watching somene die, treating it like an experiment gone right.
Tldr; this place is mostly full of the most miserable, messed up, sweetest group of people ever. Love you, you make me feel less lonely.
P.S lemme tell you sth. Don't kick me out. I secretly wish everyone's life here would take a turn for the best(no matter how improbable it sounds) and regain the will to live in this shitty world while only I get to kill myself because I am the truly worthless one
.
And all the goodbye posts are actually from bots......yeah
To the point now, are you desensitised to suicide? I think I am. Sometimes when I reply to a thread asking about a method, it feels normal, almost mechanic in the moment, like 'you silly goose ofc you can't cut your carotids, try partial suspension hanging instead
'. It's only after I post it I'm like wtf did i just type. Its really easy to forget that is an actual person with an actual life who actually wants to die which is actually sad since you know, you're the only one allowed to kill yourself and everyone else is too valuable. I don't know if I make sense.
I know I've really gone off the deep end when goodbye posts just become another post to scroll by. Bruh...an actual person dying....and I just scroll past it or briefly look at it like it's the most normal thing ever. I remember my first time on the forum seeing a goodbye post, I was shocked to my core like what?? y'all are also planning to die?? Lol what did I expect. Then you see so many 'hope you find peace' posts and not really criticising here but its more like 'well we're not sure wtf will happen after you die but hope you find peace' and yeah the latter wouldn't sound too nice to the person. Anyway, that's why I don't like to think of what happens after death or engage with that type of disscussions cuz at the end of the day its all just assumptions........or I'm just a wuss.
This was something that never crossed my mind a few years ago; watching suicide videos. I have watched a lot, a concerning amount, all in the name of research. I watch them and think oh so that's how its done, that's what happens after, you loose consciousness that fast?, this guy did it nicely. I literally forget I am watching somene die, treating it like an experiment gone right.
Tldr; this place is mostly full of the most miserable, messed up, sweetest group of people ever. Love you, you make me feel less lonely.
P.S lemme tell you sth. Don't kick me out. I secretly wish everyone's life here would take a turn for the best(no matter how improbable it sounds) and regain the will to live in this shitty world while only I get to kill myself because I am the truly worthless one
.And all the goodbye posts are actually from bots......yeah
