Close to my lowest but trying to hide it now as trying to talk about it doesn't help. I'm helping/supporting others, one with a new venture and others by managing projects and running errands. I'm focused while doing these tasks which are intellectually stimulating, but my personal goal remains unachievable. Regrets unavoidable. Failure inevitable.
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I just can’t get these damn wrists to bleed
- Jul 22, 2020
- 800
Yes. I can't sleep. Loads of anxiety. Lost contact to people. Drag my feet to a job I don't wanna do so I can sustain a life I don't wanna live.
Nymph
he/him
- Jul 15, 2020
- 2,561
Probably normal but I've been thinking about CTB more than I had ever before
fluffysuicidalbear
Waiting for the bus to arrive.
- Aug 1, 2020
- 217
I would say I'm at my lowest now, seems every day is a new low though.Yea. I can't believe I'm still here. Barely managing.
Tabbyql
Chronic people pleaser
- Mar 13, 2019
- 282
Think im.pretty much there now. Besides intermittent crying I feel nothing and care about nothing. I don't see any kind of future, no one is going to save me, no hope. I guess wiv my sister's suicide and the final slap in the face of confirmation that noone cares about me is the last straw.
Viro_Major
Rad maker
- Jul 30, 2020
- 1,287
no secret, ignition through welcoming the love sent over you, for me it was enough to revive my will to live. Secondly, & apart, listen to the help around available with openness (look for the exploration of @Sensei, the own routine I share is too bold to begin with), in my case it was about trying unusual treatments to, once and for all (after lots of procrastrination) take care of a medical condition that was dragging me down, still is but its grip on me is fading against the efforts. I'm getting the control back.
lastly, overall in 2 words, help yourself, as cheesy as it sounds. For me, it lies about a change of perspective, to look at the same things from new angles and see differently.
all trajectories won't be repeated, I'm older with a specific background (like all of us), so there's also a matter of circumstances. Good luck
edit : kuddos to @dandan too, who hinted me at hormonal treatmentsLast edited:
Lowest ever. Didn't think it was possible to get this low
ocd is bad
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- Jun 26, 2020
- 206
Leech
ɴᴏᴡ'ꜱ ᴛʜᴇ ᴏɴʟy ᴛʜɪɴɢ ᴛʜᴀᴛ'ꜱ ʀᴇᴀʟ
- Aug 8, 2020
- 205
Not my lowest but pretty low. It's hard NOT to be so low given the current global situation. I am immunocompromised so I am stuck at home and gaining weight thanks to it ://
Low would feel like I could rebound. I feel my point is removed from the graph.
Deleted member 17949
Visionary
- May 9, 2020
- 2,238
I am. I try to be positive but I've never been so low in my whole life.
Eren
Si hablas español mándame un MP
- Oct 27, 2018
- 1,074
Yes, when I was younger (for example 15 years) I was at least naive, innocent, and I did not imagine such a future.
I also did not have insomnia or significant mobility problems in my hands.
As I can't go below the ground, yes I'm at my lowest. Isolation. No friends. No woman, No work. But ... I'm studying, just to demonstrate to the state that it's not that I don't want to work ... I believe it's true what I'm thinking. But I'm not sure anymore. I forgot why I'm isolated, when I lay down I feel better, I get sleepy. I have things to do at home ... but I don't do it. Even change broken lights, clean ...
And I have to add being addicted to alcohol for a year. The only things that keep me aware of the world are two cats at home. I love them. they have a bigger heart than they could carry on.
I could be a bit lower if I didn't study. That give's me an objective to wake up by routine.
ladolcemorte
Experienced
- May 5, 2019
- 286
Absolute lowest. Waking up every day is agony.
deadgirlahsatan
Specialist
- Jun 5, 2020
- 373
RicRac
Member
- Aug 15, 2020
- 55
I don't even know if it's possible to go any lower than this.Lowest again. Last time i was this low i ended up in hospital. I was then bullied for 5 months by a nurse in there so it's not an option.soon i wld be if dont change some things then i wld be stressed to perform well my ctb
