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Steamm

Arcanist
Feb 28, 2020
446
Sometimes I feel this way, I don't know exactly if it is fear or a 'letting go' feeling
 
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Tasdevil

Tasdevil

Student
Jan 20, 2020
115
I am little scared of not knowing what happens after death. The actual dying process doesn't scare me I just hope I can overcome the guilt of my choice to CTB. i know it will upset some people when I go but I can't keep living for others which I have been doing. My last act will be for myself. I think everyone feels worried ab CTB.
 
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selfhater

selfhater

Experienced
Mar 1, 2020
222
it's just the afterlife thing
 
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Fredman

Fredman

Member
Mar 1, 2020
18
Yes, I'm scared. I will probably have a panic attack as I CTB. I'm afraid of the pain and I worry that I'll fail. On top of that, I'm scared of the big unknown which death is. For all I know, the other side is even worse than this one.
 
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a.n.kirillov

a.n.kirillov

velle non discitur
Nov 17, 2019
1,831
I had these dreams of being murdered from a very early age and there always came a point in the dream where I surrendered to my fate and I always looked forward to that part; I mean I really really enjoyed this feeling, it was such an insane relief and so pleasurable that I wonder now... maybe this has something to do with how I lived my life. I always knew that attachement to life was a petty thing.

So no to dying or letting go; no to death; but yes to pain and yes to struggling.
 
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LMLN

LMLN

Paragon
Aug 10, 2019
929
Yes and no. But when I'm ready the fear will be gone.
 
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The Warm Industry

The Warm Industry

It's still raining, up here
Jan 26, 2020
52
I believe this fear is a natural reaction, since your brain and body will do everything to convince you that dying is a bad thing.

This is also the reason why I like to drink, being drunk makes me lose my fear of doing things and face my ctb as something close.
 
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faust

faust

lost among the stars
Jan 26, 2020
3,138
Well, it may sound strange, but I am more afraid of living. Assuming what surprises life will bring me again, I don't want to miss the chance to refrain from opening this box of pandora.
 
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littlemisssunshine

littlemisssunshine

Member
Feb 19, 2020
54
No too tired of living to be fearful of dying.
 
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selfhater

selfhater

Experienced
Mar 1, 2020
222
Well, it may sound strange, but I am more afraid of living. Assuming what surprises life will bring me again, I don't want to miss the chance to refrain from opening this box of pandora.
same!! i'm beyond terrified of living i feel life has unlimited painful surprises to throw it at me my whole life
 
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SamuelMortem

Member
Mar 1, 2020
19
Not really, I'm surprisingly calm. There are moments where I start to panic and fear death a little, but they fade quickly.
 
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GoodPersonEffed

GoodPersonEffed

Brevity is my middle name, but my name was TL
Jan 11, 2020
6,727
Afraid of the dying, not of death.
 
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AcornUnderground

Mage
Feb 28, 2020
505
Yes, I am scared. I suffer through incredible physical pain every minute from an awful disease and I'm having a hard time doing it. I'm scared of the dying process, leaving people behind, what happens after we die, and in general: I loved life so it is hard to leave. My disease was sudden and fierce so not long ago, I was very happy with a wonderful life. So hard, and yes...afraid.
 
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Throwmyselfaway

Throwmyselfaway

Not gone yet but soon
Jan 14, 2020
798
I don't remember who said this but I remember it from years ago "I'm not afraid of death I just don't want to be there when it happens."
Me however I've come to just expect it at this point.
 
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Despondent

Despondent

Archangel
Dec 20, 2019
6,777
Sometimes I am, other times I'm not. The thought's still comforting to know it's accessible. Though, for some reason my SI has started to kick in. It's kicking in when I think about purchasing a rope, so I'm not sure what that's about. I keep pushing off the purchase for days.. and then weeks. It's not like I plan to make my exit right when I get it. I don't know why this is happening.
 
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issyishere

issyishere

Goodnight and always remember that’s life
Nov 5, 2019
441
Not afraid of being dead but I am afraid of the process with our methods. SN seems like a sure bet but I wish i could have a more peaceful method and instant method like N or F.
 
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vonvonwantpeace

vonvonwantpeace

Specialist
Jul 26, 2019
331
nope
 
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Pryras

Pryras

Last hope
Feb 11, 2020
516
I'm not afraid of what comes after death, but the dying process itself. I don't know what I'll feel right before I stop breathing. After I'm unconscious if I'll still feel myself losing oxygen but not being able to breath or move. I'm not sure entirely, if I'll feel anything at all once I lose consciousness but I can only hope not. :(
 
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TimeToBiteTheDust

Visionary
Nov 7, 2019
2,322
Not anymore. I don't care what comes next. Just finish this once for all
 
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SadHam

SadHam

Once a happy ham, now a sad ham.
Feb 9, 2020
26
As I flop and flip between states. Gradually loose everything of meaning and love. Although I'm naturally afraid, the relief that beacons me. The thought of peaceful uninterrupted sleep, away from the dark truths of humanity. This is not my vessel and not my planet, not my species. Bad luck, and selfish decisions made by others and myself. Peaceful sleep. No more taxation. Never had representation.
 
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Swoods

Member
Apr 21, 2019
83
I'm not afraid of dying. More of a resigned feeling.
 
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TheSuicidalEccentric

The universe is wonderful.
Feb 23, 2020
438
Why be afraid of dying when it is inevitable?
 
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AcornUnderground

Mage
Feb 28, 2020
505
Why be afraid of dying when it is inevitable?
Because maybe "now" doesn't seem like the right time. Is it survival instinct or truth or nothing..who knows. For me, in addition to other things, it creates anxiety or fear.
 
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Hopeindeath!

Elementalist
Dec 7, 2019
800
Absolutely not.
 
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Imustbefree

Member
Feb 29, 2020
38
My biggest fear is being in the afterlife and being made aware that it wasn't my time yet. From what I've read on spiritual blogs, only a small percentage of suicides are actually "meant" to happen (about 30 percent). But there is free will. That overrides everything. I take all of this with a grain salt, though. I suffer chronic pain, and I've had it for many years. I actually don't even want to get better anymore. I just want to cease to exist. Unfortunately, in my opinion, we never cease to exist. We just live in another form once we pass.
 
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RottenDeer

RottenDeer

Rotten to the core.
Feb 29, 2020
157
I am not sure. I am a bit scared of not existing anymore, wasting my only chance at life but at the same time, I want the pain to end.
 
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can'tdoitanymore

Student
Oct 31, 2019
102
I didn't used to be. I was initially scared of the pain but that quickly went away after my first attempt. Now I'm back to being scared of the pain because I have to use a different method. I'm not scared of dying though for any other reason. I do know now I don't want to die though if I could change everything that caused these feelings but I can't so don't have a choice.
 
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OddOne

Member
Jan 23, 2020
46
I am afraid of pain, not death.
 
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Otter

Experienced
Feb 10, 2020
263
No, it would be peaceful. I am nervous that the process might be overly painful, however.
Edit* now that I've looked at everyone's replies, I sound like a broken record.
 
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