highlyvolatile

highlyvolatile

I don't know anymore.
Feb 14, 2020
278
I don't know. When i think about dying at least with SN itll be somewhat peaceful. The afterlife is the unknown part. I am positive I want to die. I just am hoping what's after is somewhat pleasant. So ig just fear of the unknown and all that.
 
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Majin K.

Majin K.

too weak for this world
Jan 9, 2020
232
I'm not scared of death. Nonexistence is certain. I'm scared of life itself, because the future is uncertain.
 
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Cutepoison

Losing all hope was freedom
Dec 22, 2019
191
This is such a good question. I think I'm mostly afraid of failing to die. Also, yeah the pain scares me somewhat as well, I hope i have enough commitment when it comes to it, i don't want to panic and call emergencies.
In a way, i calm myself by the fact that dying is inevitable anyway, and by the comparison of birth, I would even assume that it's not something you'll "realize", like it's probably traumatic enough (like birth) for your brain to shut off during the process. I dunno, just something i tell myself to comfort me
 
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ctbUniquectb

Pariah
Jan 7, 2020
489
I'm only afraid of not suiciding successfully.
 
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TimeTheTaleWereTold

TimeTheTaleWereTold

lifeguard, save me from life
Jan 30, 2020
44
i'm not afraid of death, i'm only afraid of the consequences if i fail
 
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Space Cadet

Space Cadet

Member
Mar 2, 2020
64
Alas I have been in contact with other beings I choose to believe and their teachings fill me with sadness that CTB will not change anything longterm. The universe gives you life to learn lessons and when you die and the universe deems you ready it gives you another one to learn a different lesson but if you CBT and don't learn whatever lesson you was meant to you repeat a similar life until you do learn the lesson you was meant to. To me that sucks as you start again as a baby - I hated childhood and school. Also to know that you will get a similar life sucks. Makes me hesitant to CBT. Though I almost want to to test the advice but trouble is you wouldn't know as very few people recall past lives. A quandary indeed.
 
TAW122

TAW122

Emissary of the right to die.
Aug 30, 2018
6,820
I am not afraid of dying but rather failing and dealing with pain as well as the consequences/fallout after the failed attempt. That's what I fear more than the attempt and method itself.
 
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Surgeon

Surgeon

anam cara
Mar 2, 2020
61
Nervous about the process.
I feel like dying is slow and drawn out without accounting for time dilation.
It's the physical pain that has got me stuck here.
Our natural instinct in hesitation and the bodys will to live that scares me.
The otherside, the unknown.. not at all.
 
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Mizzmini45

Arcanist
Dec 1, 2019
447
Not me. I'm actually more afraid of what's to come and living through this to just die anyways. No one lives forever anyway. We all gonna experience death one day so what's the point of being afraid?
 
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Esc9434

Student
Feb 25, 2020
192
Dying in general or ctbing myself?

Dying as in out of my control, then no, I am not afraid.

Dying as in ctbing myself, then yes, I am afraid of the consequences of failure, not dying.

As long as my family can take care of themselves without my presence, then I have no fear.
 
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Mizzmini45

Arcanist
Dec 1, 2019
447
Dying in general or ctbing myself?

Dying as in out of my control, then no I am not afraid.

Dying as in ctbing myself, then yes, I am afraid of the consequences of failure, not dying.

As long as my family can take care of themselves without my presence, then I have no fear.
I totally agree
 
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Willdieby30

recently unbanned
Aug 21, 2018
175
nope
 
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Dear Flabby

Please listen to “Across the Universe”
Feb 20, 2020
254
No.
 
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Mizzmini45

Arcanist
Dec 1, 2019
447
I feel like I almost welcome it. I wake up every morning heartbroken I got to live through another day and hoping to die in my sleep. Some days it makes me feel better and puts me to sleep to think about death. It soothing
 
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Arisa

Arisa

Clinging onto every ounce of hope
Feb 23, 2020
46
Not at all. I feel death is a part of living and having lived. I just hope I can enjoy a week of "something" I wanted to do in my life then I'll off myself.
 
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Tictoc77

Member
Feb 11, 2020
14
I'm scared that when the moment comes I'll want to back out because it will be painful and I wont be able to, or I'll mess it up and make things even worse. My head is so tormented atm.
 
Marktheghost

Marktheghost

Paragon
Feb 20, 2020
911
I'm just scared of trying to kill myself and it not working, and it causing me more suffering.
 
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lizinha

Student
Feb 6, 2019
144
Yes and no. I'm scared of the process when dying and what potentially comes after. But at the same time I've made peace with it.
 
Suicide_vampire

Suicide_vampire

In Vino Veritas
Feb 11, 2020
426
I've never had a fear of death from a very young age. Think that's part of the problem.
 
AlreadyGone

AlreadyGone

Taking it day by day
Jan 11, 2020
917
Are you referring to fear of dying naturally or through ctb? Cause we are all going to die sometime. So what is there to be afraid of?
 
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Deleted member 14386

I am not advising anything
Jan 28, 2020
784
Dying itself? No. What happens after my death (possible utopic or dystopic worlds, I hate the idea that I could get hooked up to a dopamine/infinite pleasure button in 5 years, like the people who couldn't orgasm and they just went offff on the button as I would) does worry me. It's kind of a gamble since my issues could be fixed.
I don't remember who said this but I remember it from years ago "I'm not afraid of death I just don't want to be there when it happens."
Me however I've come to just expect it at this point.
Woody Allen I think!

Also for some reason my mind has some hope, some grasping thing that I can't control that twists my thoughts, regardless of how illogical it is, the twisty thing works it's magic, guessing it's SI
 
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flower

flower

on the moon
Feb 23, 2020
320
I'm not afraid of dying but I'm afraid of failing when trying to die
 
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nonamegirl

Student
Jan 6, 2020
183
Death itself - not really. I'm quite convinced it's nothing, devoid of any emotions.
The dying procces/CTB: Super afraid. 80% that it will be painful/very distressing, 20% of possible failure.
 
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Sad_Autistic_boy_101

Sad_Autistic_boy_101

When I die, you'll love me.
Nov 19, 2019
453
I'm not afraid of dying itself. I guess I am afraid of the unknown (being autistic I like certainty) so having an attempt is also unknown stuff as it's not predictable if you will survive or not.
 
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noko

Not tortured
Feb 14, 2020
80
I wasn't afraid before, but tonight I feel anxious and afraid of everything. The good news is there actually is an afterlife and if you were a good person you get to go there, the bad news is if you weren't a good person you boil(for eternity probably).
 
foreverbroken28

foreverbroken28

I've gone off the deep end.
Jul 11, 2019
124
Even though dying won't last forever, my main concern is how uncomfortable it will be... That's it. I have a "belief" about what happens after we die but honestly I don't care what happens. I'll find out when I get there. This is the best choice.
 

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