Nah, just the NEET part. But if I had enough money to have my own place and not work I'd probably very rarely leave the house tbh (would be able to order everything online easily, including ctb stuff). Going outside is basically a way to be even more isolated than in my room for some hours (live with family). Today I sat on a bench and chain-smoked for two hours or something; no phone, no nothing. At other times I am alone in nature for hours without stimulation or activities. Feels like I'm blending in more if I smoke or pretend to read a book or something.
I always feel brain-dead in public since everyone else is doing things and they also have jobs and shit. I basically tried to activate my head to think about things today (using words to think is something I have to use effort to do, the modus operandi is images and short one-liners from memory or chains of logic or something, and I don't get to choose what comes to mind), and there are always the same sentences being generated when I do this: "Ok, GenesAndEnvironment, I think you have enough time to ctb if something dystopian starts happening." "So, should you kill yourself today? You don't have the means on your person rn.", "Your methods would only work if you were truly desperate, should you try to buy SN somehow?", "Oh, all-right, I am using the voice again. (x100)", etc.