I guess so. Im a 29 year old woman living in Iran ( middle east). I am smart. Hardworking, have made good results and... but I dont fit my culture. Ppl hate me for my beliefs. My mom literally wishes me gone. Pol cant accept me for who I am. I have made a lot sacrifice to get along. Waited so long. And worked hard. It is in a situation that the country is under a huge pressure bcus of sanctions on one hand and bad government on the other hand. I have struggled financially all my life. Been sexually and emotionally as a kid and teen from my dad. Always deppressed and stressed bcuz of family fights.been ignored left alone kidnapped and ... Im tired and I can totally feel how not fit I am. I can see how everything wants me dead. And its while I never have been lazy. I worked. Got a master. Built my body in the gym. Won a guitar competition. But at the end of the day I was wrong. Non of these mattered cuz I wasnt a traditional woman. I was a rebel and far from normal. And had to pay the price with loneliness fear and confusion. And now Im too tired and hopeless to make another step. It never gets somewhere. Never gets better. Ppl my age have jobs married and happy. But not me. But I dont even want those thing anymore.decided to move somewhere else then economy gut f.. up and couldnt afford anymore. Took medicine and therapy which helped alittle but my scars are so deep that nothing can heal them. I do want to cbt cuz I know this endless pain ends only this way.
