baller
"such is life"
- Apr 30, 2024
- 54
Just wanted to document how i've been feeling real recently -- probably gotten worse lol. I've been here alot more recently compared to the usual once a month spiral
My original plan was to CTB in about 4 years but might make it a year or so shorter. I had a reason to go for a bit longer but its just not there anymore
I remember I wanted a funeral with all my family and disallowing the people i hated, but honestly, i dont care that much anymore, cremate me and put me in a plastic bag for all i care
I remember wanting to make a bajillion word suicide note as a goodbye, but i honestly dont think i'll write a big one anymore.
Unless some video games i like get their sequel released, I think i'll CTB a bit sooner.
It's interesting to see how I changed over time. I think i dont care as much anymore. I'm losing reasons to live and i'm not sad about it. That, or i'm finding more reasons to CTB. Curious if anyone else has had changes like this
My original plan was to CTB in about 4 years but might make it a year or so shorter. I had a reason to go for a bit longer but its just not there anymore
I remember I wanted a funeral with all my family and disallowing the people i hated, but honestly, i dont care that much anymore, cremate me and put me in a plastic bag for all i care
I remember wanting to make a bajillion word suicide note as a goodbye, but i honestly dont think i'll write a big one anymore.
Unless some video games i like get their sequel released, I think i'll CTB a bit sooner.
It's interesting to see how I changed over time. I think i dont care as much anymore. I'm losing reasons to live and i'm not sad about it. That, or i'm finding more reasons to CTB. Curious if anyone else has had changes like this
