After my last failed ctb attempt c. 2013, I tried to lift myself up. I told myself I'm perfectly normal (despite being in my late 20s with zero social life or relationship) and I just needed to put myself out there more. I created a facebook account and twitter account , sent a request to the one fellow loser friend I had at the time. Posted pictures of myself, wrote "funny" posts, interacted on others posts, joined groups, yadda yadda.
Fast forward 4 years, and I'd managed to accumulate a grand total of... 12 FB "friends". Lol. Almost all of them were work acquaintances, I was the one to send requests to every single one of them. My posts mostly had 0 interactions, except a few which that loser friend "liked" out of pity.
Over time, I kind of forgot about my social media accounts and lost touch with my IRL friend. One day I suddenly remembered and logged in, only to find that my FB friend count was now down to 8, and I find from my friend's feed that he'd gotten this amazing job in Europe (something both of us had always dreamt of) AND a girlfriend he'd been with for over 2 years. What's more, his posts all had 100s of like/comments -- some "loser". The absurdity of it all finally hit me. In the next 5 minutes I wiped out all my social media.