Anyone stuck?

[Hotsackage]

Just wondering if.anyone else is afraid to cbt because certain injuries or major impairements can result

 

[No life]

Yep definitely and I don't have the energy to go out getting stuff and failing again

 

[RevolutionaryRed]

Stuck is the right word. But I can't afford to be stuck , I need to make a decision soon

 

[Sick Boy]

Yes i´m stuck,i´m trying to obtain N in my third world country, but no vet wants to sell it to me,everytime i get rejected,and i don´t have the guts to do partial and I dont think that SN would do the the job,i feel that im going to be rescued and end up in the ER

 

[Addy92]

Nope. Afraid to ctb especially last two days. Feeling better. That's scary. Cos I know there's no future now. A week ago I was set on dying.
Just thought about this. I'm stuck.

 

[Hotsackage]

Yes i´m stuck,i´m trying to obtain N in my third world country, but no vet wants to sell it to me,everytime i get rejected,and i don´t have the guts to do partial and I dont think that SN would do the the job,i feel that im going to be rescued and end up in the ER

What's wrong with partial

 

[misos9]

I am stuck at cutting wrist part because I don't have enough courage

 

[Sick Boy]

What's wrong with partial

I don´t have the courage to do partial in a hotel room,i dont want to traumatize innocent people

 

[About_to_Go]

I am stuck at cutting wrist part because I don't have enough courage

Don't try to ctb by cutting your wrists, it very, very rarely works. I don't think that was what you're saying, I think you were talking about self-harm, but for anyone reading this: don't try to ctb by cutting your wrists!

 

[CoolGuy9]

Don't try to ctb by cutting your wrists, it very, very rarely works. I don't think that was what you're saying, I think you were talking about self-harm, but for anyone reading this: don't try to ctb by cutting your wrists!

Don't tell me what to do! tries to ctb by cutting wrist

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

Just wondering if.anyone else is afraid to cbt because certain injuries or major impairements can result

stuck due to terror

 

[Struggling]

Thinking now I need n

 

[Queer_Kenny]

Just wondering if.anyone else is afraid to cbt because certain injuries or major impairements can result

Not so much afraid to ctb, as I am of failing again.

 

[Olach]

Was afraid of afterlife. But once i figured out that there is non existents, I'm ready to go

 

[Namnaf]

Yeah. N costs a bit much and takes its time to obtain. My next idea is oxycodone... A failure could be bad. Stuck

 

[Cookiedough8956]

I'm scared of what can go wrong, but I gotta suck it up eventually. Can't keep waiting and telling myself "yeah..but this might happen, or that" Just gotta risk it, and take a chance.
Im also afraid of the unknown afterwards..now THAT i cannot seem to come to terms with.
What a stupid predicament to be stuck in

 

[seekingoblivion]

Yeah. No reliable method and plan for exit and no hope for a better tomorrow. Feeling trapped is amongst the worst feelings one can have.

 

[Hotsackage]

Yeah. No reliable method and plan for exit and no hope for a better tomorrow. Feeling trapped is amongst the worst feelings one can have.

You and I both. I've gotten close to passing out with hanging. That's the best .method i got

 

[DeadlyLiving]

I want to die - I am 100% sure of it. But doing all these things for preparation like writing a letter, cleaning my room and sorting out stuff that no one should find, seem to be so much. And there is still my dog and my cat, I am pretty sure that my grandparents would take the dog but I am trusting no one on my cat..
And I am afraid of the afterlife, or to be more accurate - that there is nothing that comes after.

 

[neveranyhope]

Nope. Afraid to ctb especially last two days. Feeling better. That's scary. Cos I know there's no future now. A week ago I was set on dying.
Just thought about this. I'm stuck.

This is the worst. I'm here now.

This last month has been torturous. I had to push through the worst of it because I would have been posthumously embarrassed by the timing (fucking stupid and weird huh) but now that I pushed through to the thing I needed to do, the monster has started to fade a bit. Although not enough, apparently, because I was in a meeting (I do volunteer work since I'm not employed and hate being such a drain on the universe) and was trying to control panic attacks I was having and I guess I spaced out and didn't respond to someone talking to me, which then led to a very uncomfortable phone call about my wellbeing.

 

[seekingoblivion]

You and I both. I've gotten close to passing out with hanging. That's the best .method i got

Didn't get that far myself. Tie I used slipped and my ass fell to the floor. I don't have anything that's even remotely reliable.

 

[Hotsackage]

Didn't get that far myself. Tie I used slipped and my ass fell to the floor. I don't have anything that's even remotely reliable.

I'm sticking with a belt. And hopefully one day i just fall unconscious

 

[seekingoblivion]

And I am afraid of the afterlife, or to be more accurate - that there is nothing that comes after.

Might you be able to shed some light on what there is to fear regarding the prospect of nonexistence after death? I mean if you cease to exist then there is nothing to experience and you basically go into an eternal dreamless sleep. It seems to me more reasonable to fear an afterlife of torture. I personally hope that there is no afterlife to walk into after I die.

 

[Gina]

Definitely, I don't want to die but I want to relieve my family of my burdens.

 

[uiop]

I am stuck. The only things holding me back are my parents, and the promise I made to my friend and brother. If they disappeared, it'll all be so easy. I want them to hate me so I can go through with it, but I do not believe that is a rational choice. Ultimately if I go through with it, it will be a strategic decision, not an act based on emotion.

 

[Ruffian]

Yes i´m stuck,i´m trying to obtain N in my third world country, but no vet wants to sell it to me,everytime i get rejected,and i don´t have the guts to do partial and I dont think that SN would do the the job,i feel that im going to be rescued and end up in the ER

Do you mind me asking is that Charlotte Gainsborough in your profile pic? It looks like her.

This is the worst. I'm here now.

This last month has been torturous. I had to push through the worst of it because I would have been posthumously embarrassed by the timing (fucking stupid and weird huh) but now that I pushed through to the thing I needed to do, the monster has started to fade a bit. Although not enough, apparently, because I was in a meeting (I do volunteer work since I'm not employed and hate being such a drain on the universe) and was trying to control panic attacks I was having and I guess I spaced out and didn't respond to someone talking to me, which then led to a very uncomfortable phone call about my wellbeing.

Oh no! I do embarrassing stuff at work sometimes. I have difficulty sleeping and sometimes fall asleep for a minute during the day.

 

[Olach]

Might you be able to shed some light on what there is to fear regarding the prospect of nonexistence after death? I mean if you cease to exist then there is nothing to experience and you basically go into an eternal dreamless sleep. It seems to me more reasonable to fear an afterlife of torture. I personally hope that there is no afterlife to walk into after I die.

An afterlife of torture. That sounds disappointing. But, besides me, there is no afterlife at all. As most of near death experience people reported there is nothing after death, only the darkness.

 

[Struggling]

Can't work out what's worse fear or failing attempt or fear of having to deal with people. So far found 'sweet spot' but always catching windpipe.